when I said
I doubt you'd come back
I didn't think it would be true

people like you
don't come back
you probably think that about me too

but what is it that I miss?
your ignorant bliss
the way you would brag
about how you would kiss
the opposite of me

have the audacity
to say we would play by my rules
have the audacity
to say you would do anything for me

but what more can I expect
I knew
that people like you
don't come back

heal me
you said
I hear you
I said
save me
you said
I will try
I said
but actually
I haven’t got
the
friggin’ energy
I said.

if I could
be anyone
in the world
I could be
I would wake up
tomorrow
and be you

how rare
afternoon turning to evening
on my skin

yellow sky
the winter grass
deepens

pale gate
in darkness
the hanging lamp

or

pale gate
in darkness
the unlit lamp

quiet morning
my eyes travel up the pines
to the sky

or

quiet morning
my eyes stay awhile
at the tops of the pines