To write words over and over
To explain what it feels to love you
To express what you mean to me

No words can be enough for that
And so I always end up erasing them

It would seem
That I spend
Many of these days
Out of phase
With reality

It’s like I’m standing
In a room of people
I know and love
And they’re strangers
So am I

My hands don’t feel my own
I don’t feel what I expect
Sometimes I’m just dizzy
With thoughts
Like reality is moving
Swirling around me
And I’m elsewhere

Sometimes I’m just out of phase
With the world
But I keep coming back
And I’m not always sure why

I miss the silence
now that I don't have it

asleep I'm so numb
unfolded rosebud
love
no eyes passing by

I die
when I fall asleep
wake me up inside a dream

I look for meaning in everything
except myself