She was a solstice
Something to be waited upon
Change in such a way
That made the day seem night
And when she spoke
Only the Angels
Could hear her voice.

I still have the cut on my hand
Memories engraved with silence
A dying wish to see her
And how I've been standing.

Perfectly painted into my sight
She stood still
And asked me to join her
I had the time of my life
And she vanished
Only remnants of good morning kisses
I wish I could have held her longer.

I remember when you would smile
When you looked at me
And when I looked back it lasted
For a while.

Pieces of love found throughout
The ones I've held dear
Memories meshed together
As if It was all meant to be
And thoughts come and go
As if they were dreams,
I can barely remember,
But the feeling lasts forever
And has sat with me today
The longing for what cannot be told
Doesn't seem to go away.

When you **** everything you touch
Death doesn't seem too much
Blind for life and in a rush
Crushing my heart
And others
Don't get me started I'm smothered
Who plays the part of my mother
I chose to live for the numbers

And question where I am.

It's safe it's fine I'm eroding
I used to be so open
Life at times is hopeless
I'm unsolved and morbid.