My heart is not a place for you...
I just came here to tell ya
Im just not right for you.
There aren't enough words for me to describe the problems.
So just listen to me please..
Just before I leave baby.



Im so cruel, im so cruel.
So naturally cruel.
Yet you had to be fooled.
You had to be fooled.
Now where here in this mess.
Is it too late to address...



Why are you confused?
Did you really think what we had, would last any longer than a night.
Did you have to curse my name?



We all knew what this was.
Yet you still tried to find love.
Now you're sitting in the closet contemplating the decisions you made.



Im so cruel, im so cruel.
So naturally cruel.
Yet you had to be fooled.
You had to be fooled.
Now where here in this mess.
Is it too late to address...



Somehow you found love.
In the hour that we spent.
In that night of our sins.
I should've never let you in.
You know you don't belong.
In the kind of world i live.
Yet you tried to fit in...
In this world i live in.
You're too pure...so pure
Too pure



Im so cruel, im so cruel.
So naturally cruel.
Yet you had to be fooled.
You had to be fooled.
Now where here in this mess.
Is it too late to address...

I've made a few enemies.
the decisions that I've made.
You say you see a friend in me.
that's about to change.
I am not worthy of your kindness.
Im not worthy of your trust.
When people get close to me.
Things tend to blow up.

Why can't you see, we are nothing but enemies.
Haven't you heard, Im nothing but a bird.
You said you'd take a chance.
Don't waste it on me.
You said you'd take a chance.
But im begging you please...

Why can't you just leave me alone.
Don't nobody have to know.
You found a friend in me.
Why can't you please just go.
Don't nobody have to know
I tried to be more than enemies
Im just an enemy

People say what they want when they want, but yet somehow you know the truth.
The madness that surrounds me, yet somehow you always break through.
But this ain't right, yet somehow it feels so right.
Look what you've done.
You have managed to somehow get through.

Why can't you see, we are nothing but enemies.
Haven't you heard, Im nothing but a bird.
You said you'd take a chance.
Don't waste it on me.
You said you'd take a chance.
But im begging you please...baby

Why can't you just leave me alone.
Don't nobody have to know.
You found a friend in me.
Why can't you please just go.
Don't nobody have to know
I tried to be more than enemies
Im just an enemy

Because its 2am
                                
                                                and im sitting in my bedroom alone

    thinking of ways to **** myself
                  thinking of reasons to hate myself  

                                                                  while you're sleeping



because I told you I was fine.

We write of hate
We write of love
And other things
We know something of

At different angles
Add our lines
Take a spin
With what we find

Fact or fiction
Lies or truth
Being poets
It's what we do

We write of needs
We try and fill
Tug at hearts
Strengthen wills

From natures plight
To the call of man
We hold it all
Inside our pen

As the sage speaks
The pen moves
We say it all
It's what poets do

We write of days
Given away
A solace with
Something to say

Glimmer of hope
Much needed laugh
Rhyme for the reason
For feeling sad

A little off beat
Yet still in tune
Filling a need
It's what poets do

perhaps,
the most abuse i have experienced
was not when my ex boyfriend
controlled, threatened, or lied to me
but perhaps
it's the relationship
between two people
i call mind and body

you see,
mind and body are in a relationship
but mind is insecure and jealous
but body loves mind so much
they put up with it,
mind has forced body
to pick at wounds
and run blades
over their fair skin,
mind has told body
not to eat so much
so body began overeating,
but then mind forced them
to shove a toothbrush
at the back of their throat
to bring it back up,
mind has made body
overdose on laxatives
to the point
of almost no return,
but it's not too late
for body to heal

in fact,
it is finally time
for mind to realize the pain
they have caused body,
it is time for mind
to apologize
and change their ways,
and it is time
for mind to accept
body as they are
because all body ever wanted
was the acceptance
and the love of mind

and perhaps,
mind has finally come to peace
within themself
to help reverse the damage
they have caused to body
because all along
body cared so deeply
about mind
that they never gave in
to the signals that maybe
it was time to end things
for the both of them

but you don't have to worry
about that happening,
mind and body are working
on their relationship now
so that time
will never come
for either of them

and then I asked you,
"What's your biggest fear?"

you gave me a quivering sigh,
looked at me straight in the eyes
and said,

"It's that eventually, you will see me
the way I see myself."