i want you so bad

forgive us for what
we have done.

"I'm used to it," she numbly says.
And that's how you knew she was broken.

a boy confessed me today
on facebook, for the first time
i had no idea how to reply.

i said oh.
he said can we try.
i said sorry.

i thought he got the message,
but he told me to think about it,
now i don't know what to do

I entrust my dreams to a silent hope
that they will someday find their place
in this, a past or future life
same smile on different face

I entrust my thoughts to travel time
to land where there is need
a sense of calm
a flash of joy
where nothing grows
a seed

I entrust my love to peer across
the synchronistic chain
to spy it's true immortal mate
hearts join like tears and rain

I entrust my soul to find a home
in this universal plan
lives re-written
searching for
the key to understand

I just want to fall asleep and never wake up.

i remember when
you cried at the top of your lungs
saying if you lose me
you'd lose yourself

today i saw you lose yourself
in her eyes

~~
I'm going but coming to you again
when the train of love begins to start
then I found myself in love and live
such a bond that bound you to stand beneath the tree

I'm coming but going to you again
when my soul never found any goal
looking for a heart that flies like a bird
as a little bit of anguish which distinguished me without you

If I had not taken birth in this earth, I could not love
as long as I expect you that grew in me
an old empty silent tree even that never been free
from hot dust that always made a long thirst
even alone but still belongs
in the heart of mine

my darling! you know this is nostril
where I'm drilling,  
going but coming back to home again
to tell unspoken words which above all the intolerance of
in the desert burning grains

~~
@Musfiq us shaleheen