As I sit here in the rain
And think of the things I can't explain
Of the things to come
Of the pain undone

I think of way more than one
But also will it come
When I am done
Will I only feel some
And leave the rest at the end of my run
The pain spared as I drift toward the sun

Will I lose them
Or will they lose me
I thought it to the stem
But still I have to wait and see

I don't know when my time is
Or when when theirs is
But deep down I'm hoping
That them both I'll miss
It will be sarrows innocence kiss
Hearts will be broken
And I fear to feel that open
The only reminder left
Memories token.

As I look across my lifeline
And find that it's all but fine
I wonder what my mind enclined
When I was at that point in time

Things that seemed sense
Now left no evidence
Things I could then explain
Now left in flame
Time has passed
What is now will past
Nothing lasts

Everything has changed
And it requires a new me
I am left deranged
By the thought of who I try to be
The attempts often futile
While,
I be the best me I can currently be
Keep it all inside like it isn't destroying me
Endure the ride wait and see
Find what they call free

I'm honestly sometimes clueless
the pieces of my mind glueless
But I have the endurance to do this.

I poured my heart out for you on these pages
Does that prove I am better than the rest?
If I spelled each serious word carefully placed with purpose
Would you care I plucked them straight from my chest?

Dangling from pride by flimsy feeble strings
Pathetic pieces float uncertain and shaking
Hastily tied them to my heart as they arose
Now those timid concerns and domesticated woes are mine for the taking

I keep them close to use only when needed
To project palaces or prisons for my protected thoughts
One by one I pull emotions from inner walls
And other tucked away hiding spots

They burrow further as suffering increases
Yet no matter how deep they dig
I still hear their mournful muffled hum
In my eardrums starting small then growing big

That is the twisted key to my success
Smiling as I spill secret sorrow
Taking others to a place seldom seen
Boundless heights that will move tomorrow

Unburdened yet incomplete without these emotions
Only seem to flourish in fear or agony
I summon these wild feelings from my soul
To show exactly what you mean to me