I feel my mind weep
My heart down so deep
Torn piece by piece
Im not able to breathe
Shut in box
So tiny
Claustrophobic much
Suffocating me
With this pain
So hard to eat
But the breakthrough has changed me so much I must stay strong
For my family
My relationship
And prove everyone wrong

Why do you run?
The fear that of commitment is it
Or is it that the older you get
The lonier you wish to be
You push me away
Do you not want me
If you wanted just me
You should have looked for an orphan
Or stopped leading me on knowing my package
You should have NEVER let me open up to you
Not this much
You have all of me now
My biggest treasure
That’s the word, that’s what you are
You are perfectly a Coward

Will I be
Genuinely happy?
Or will I look back
Back in remorse
Or Regret
The fear of being unhappy
In the end
I want to feel accomplished
Feel the love I dream about
Have the happy ending I fantasize about
About having children
Being married
And abundantly successful
Being successful

HOW DARE YOU
CAN YOU PLEASE
THERE IS NEVER TIME
WHAT ABOUT THE RIGHT TIME?
Time
Can you please go slower
Slower when its time
Or faster
Faster when its right
The odds are against my favor
When there is time
Is there ever time

Anxious as I am
My heart beats faster
Something is wrong with me
Birds mellowly follow me
Gray skies
Hard to love
Why

My dearest one
My little love
So “tough”
   Yet so fragile
     To be
       Tall
         My handsome
           Little one
            Not so little at all
              Now stop
               Don’t grow
                 Not anymore
                   Why are you bitter
                     Mad at the world?
                       Grow out of your hate
                         And into our God
                           Stay safe
                             And stay away
                               Way away from evil
                                 Temptation
                                    I can only be there
                                     Be there for you
              For so long, I’ll defend you
          And always care for you
    Love you, you little
Not so little homie
                                  ❤️

Don’t love me
Then toss me
Fumble with my feelings
Far from renouncing
To the ache of your love
An astonishing attachment
To toy with my soul
Is to dismember me in whole