**** traffic for taking too much time on your hands.
**** those happy couples passing by your way.
**** that stupid shirt you always get to wear out of hundreds of **** shirts.
**** that person you dont want to see on the worst day but you see anyway.
**** your pride when it's too tall to fall.
**** older people for not understanding but were never short on judging.
**** your friends when they are too selfish and stupid most of the time.
**** yourself for always giving a ****.
**** this feeling that should have not stayed but never bother leave today.
**** my heart would one day just explode with all these madness.
**** you when I cant find you.
**** you when I wanted just one touch from you.
**** what would I do if I was still able to hold you.
**** me for taking myself for granted.
**** myself for being the ***** that is unwanted.
**** me for not putting much effort.
**** me for not being a good sport.
**** me for loving myself way too short.
**** this sadness that's eating me whole.
**** today I've never felt this alone.

How long O grief
How long

Nothing is ever good enough
Nothing comes easy

You were playing with my hand and holding them.
Kissing it when I slightly turned my head.
I've never enjoyed so much walking.
And I badly wished those roads never end.

My heart will probably explode to so much joy and contentment here.
Your presence alone is suffocating me with gladness.
Your smell that I've always liked lingered.
My arms intertwined with yours is where I think they should stay.

I can do this for a lifetime.

Loving wont be so hard if this was this easy.
Life won't be a pain if you were always with me.
I can conquer all things with you next to me.

I just wish work wont get in the way.
And this alarm won't buzz
today.
Because I've never dreamt this good before.
I close my eyes and hope to see you once more.

When beer is a better companion than five missing old friends.

She's so fragile, it's tragic.
He's generally nice yet she fell for it like magic.

Guy acting kind.
Her thoughts running wild.

She's so fragile, she thinks it's reality.
Now she doesn't even know she's living in fantasy.

Her heart is so broken that a single act of kindness sends her falling.
She's so fragile,* **it's tragic.

The thought of seeing you made me happy
*genuinely happy

Sa kakaisip sayo,
pati payong naiwan ko.

something's aching.
bodies longing.
kisses we missin'.
nothing is fulfilling.

apart we're broken.
separated we died.
yesterday she cried.
this morning those tears already dried.

quite sure she's breathing.
pretty sure that heart is no longer beating.
she lives with the waves.
her life she watches in a haze.

how can a person be so needy and insensitive at the same time?
please, explain.

the bright sun shines.
the hope that clears minds.
i love how His light clears all things dark.
how us as a people look forward to a future that never clings to the past.

Tendencies.
And what if analogies.

I only keep three message history on my phone:
my parents.
my brother.
and that last conversation we had months ago.

And there, she kept knocking.
Friends she kept chasing.
Love she's always hoping.

Embrace that she dyingly longs for.
Never came in and return the favor.

Her sadness is her earring.
Her feelings she kept on burying.

One day she'll burst out.
To the wrong person.
At an untimely moment.

It will always be sad seeing yourself going through things alone.

I missed the old hippie that always gives high fives to everybody.
The kid that always hangs out for free coffee.
The geek that reads books in bookshops until closing.
The dreamer that never stopped dreaming.
The artist that never stopped at life no matter what **** comes in.
Today I missed the old self that I was once in.

To say you are okay is a total understatement.
When you are living in solitary confinement.
Is this really how it should feel?
Empty.
Hallow.
And just going through the reel?

But being alone does not automatically meant depression.
Sometimes it just appears the same when you've been through it for the longest season.

First, fill up with water the empty cup.
Love yourself and take a little bit more nap.

Get some coffee and a bit of sugar too.
Reach out to friends and family whom you have unknowingly told to "shoo!"

Mix some creamer if you like.
Maybe a little milk will make the bitter coffee hide.
Take a stranger or a friend a bit serously.
Who know's their intentions might vary differently.

Serve while hot and enjoy.
Take time and realize that Love is not a toy.

I like you and I think I was quite clear about it.
Either you're too bright or too numb that all this time you've ignored it.
I was like a dog chasing after a ball.
Oh right I remember, I literally chased you one Christmas down that hall.

You're way too good looking to be mine.
But every time we talked, I knew no girl can level with you the way I can.
Dude, I'm so proud that you are now following your call.
I on the other hand think am going down straight for that fall.

Your success is my happiness my Love.
But right now let me deal with my sadness while we each achieve success on our time apart.

And once again I say goodnight,
to the two pillows that will hug me tonight.