Made everything so simple, it became complicated
Found what I was looking for.. couldn't get situated
Now I'm just frustrated

My best laid plan was a dream all along
Tricked into believing about right and wrong..
Now feels like the right time to move on

In my mind you are alive,
Playing the lead in my fantasies,
Corroding my senses with outpours of do’mine,
drenching my essence then doing it all over again.

In my mind you are alive,
casually laying claim to each vessel of my being.
Traveling,
Rooting,
Growing,
A fruitless tree you are,
Forever rooted, never sweet.

In my mind you are alive,
Able to contain as many blows sent your way,
Strong, level-headed and calm; so sure.

I am skeptical, pensive and critical; What a perfect match, no?

My eyes are closed and here you are, piercing through the thinness of my lids.
You warm the darkest winters and light up the coldest days of my heart.
You are transatlantic, universal,
You remind me of who I am and where I am from.

Ever-consistent in your daily rise and set.
Essential to the churning of the wheels of humanity,
Dare I call you the civic catalyst

Nevertheless, you are split,
Destined to show a side of yourself at a time
You are tendered, cautioned from exposing yourself fully to the bodies that be.
“Good” and appreciated when watered down,
“Lethal” and “unnecessary” in your entirety.

Yet you show us who we are,
Sometimes without the color—you cast us as our innate and solely that.
I hope for your own casting one day.

Time and effort wasted, pain at its peak
I don’t feel anything, it all seems so bleak

I felt something real, I thought you were true
I could pick up my pieces while you provide the glue

I made so many excuses, I was always there
Looking to cheer you up as I stripped myself bare

And then it started, the disappointments and distrust
The once known pleasure was coupled with more pain than it was worth

I tried to fight it, the nudging in my chest
I talked and talked in order to put it to rest

But then I couldn’t, so I searched for answers
I looked and scrolled and scrolled and saw it right there on the GRAMmars

I felt it sink, what I once called my heart,
I couldn’t believe that I had played this part

You showed the affection especially with your eyes
Not once, not twice but eleven times

If there’s anyone to blame, that would be me
As I let you in solely because I was lonely..