Days fall upon a broken soul bringing darkness before the night
Consuming ones mind leaving no filter to distinguish wrong from right.
Voices from a place unknown with breath of stagnate smoke whispering in their ear
Placing upon their victim evil thoughts of fear
Appearing from behind the shell of their remains
For when unveiling their face hollow eyes is what you see with a trail of tear drop stains
Hiding in every corner and trusting no one
Forgetting  how to live  staying on the run
The pain and sadness overtook everything you once were and anything you ever wanted to be , you allowed the drug to poison you now may you
Rest In Peace

A place that ignites the aroma of a salty kiss filled with romance and love are of the white glistening beaches of the oceans edge
Lovers from near and far embrace their love with the waves of the water sounds through the beats of their hearts
There remains something so magical  and unknown from the depths of those never touched ocean floors yet in the air the feeling it brings
The soft wind always blowing through your hair with a hint of sand touching your face and the waves wet your feet
You draw in the sand a heart filled with your names and watch as a wave surfs in and carries it to sea
What a divine intervention the ocean can be

Her words of inspiration she speaks with her pen
My heart worries of her absence and Longs  to see her amongst us again
The friend I found in her is so very special and rare
I Pray that she knows how much we all care.
It’s been five long months since she has reached out to me
I miss her advise and encouragement you see
This woman my eyes have never seen or voice I’ve never heard, became one of my dearest most cherished friends
Kim Johanna Baker, I pray that you know how much you are loved before you time on this earth ends
If you can read this but are to Ill to respond
I thank you for all your words that have touched my soul and for a sister like bond
I know your spirits were darkened by so many things out of your control
There is not nor will there ever be a more loving, caring woman with an angelic soul.

My body went numb the moment you took your last breath
I tried so hard to feel you yet felt only death
It was a feeling I had never felt before
Silence had filled my existence as I slowly knelt to the floor
I screamed out for you but you never replied
I knew in my heart the moment you died
I wanted to save you from all the thoughts in your head
But you turned away from me instead
What am I to do now that you are gone
Where do I go when there’s nowhere I belong
I want to wake up from this terrible nightmare
Reaching to touch you but you aren’t there
How do I go on without you here with me
What will I tell our little girl when she asks me where her daddy could be
We didn’t plan things to end this way
My only sanity is knowing that we will see you again some day.

The heart that’s filled with silence fills the soul with saddened screams
Screams muffled through the confusion Of loss and what it means
Description of all emotions wrapped like a blanket to keep warm from the cold
Trying to keep free from insanity is like keeping the young from growing old
Losing someone you love to death has the closure of a goodbye
Losing someone you love that is alive but you will never see again
leaves you always wondering why
Locked behind those bars where I can’t get to you or protect you from the unknown
I may never lay my eyes on your precious face again as you’ve left me again all alone
Two beautiful angels stand and want for you and need you to see them grow.
I’ll never get to be in their life now I’m just another Mimi my granddaughters will never know.
The sentence handed to you they will hand to me as well
For your absence has placed a void in me i can only describe as a silent yell.
I feel your sadness and hear you calling out my name
The hurt knowing I may have lost you forever leaves me with regret and so much blame
I sit and stare from my window with nothing but broken dreams
Knowing the loss of my sanity will only be my silent screams

Peering from my window as the Heavens begin to leak
Trickles form a raindrop sliding slowly out of sight
Such an amazing sense of wonder this thing we call rain
Where is it that it comes from as I see no end in the sky
As such a wetness falls upon us and into the ground to dry
Is it the angels crying tears, no this can’t be
For there is no pain or sorrow just love and happiness of a place open and free
Where does the rain fall from as the clouds appear to be fluffy and bright
And why is it with the rain comes thunder and lightening Roaring with all its might
Such a mysterious force of nature or An act of God per say
The floors of heaven will open and wet Gods land today

So young and beautiful yet you wear a painted smile
The sadness you hold inside of you and have been hiding for a while
Yet you have hid it from the world and wore a painted smile
I feel your pain sharp like knives stabbing at you one by one
If I could could change things you know I would for the pain you feel I know is because you are so in love with my son.
You would give your heart and soul to him if only he would commit
But his life has thrown him so much it’s hard for him to quit
He calls on you in his time of despair
Because he knows far to well how much you care.
I want to be angry for the way he has done and pushed you to the side
But baby girl I believe in my heart he is protecting you and setting down his pride.
Cherish every little hug and kiss he’s given you
It’s harder for him to walk away and keep a friend that’s true
Just know what’s meant to be will be
No matter which way it goes I will love you know less you will always mean the world to me