Reaching out to catch you and save you from the fall
so many times I caught you and warned you of that wall.
I’m holding onto you in every possible way
Overpowered by your strength I’m begging you to stay
My eyes are pouring tears as I watch you try to cross a weak and broken bridge
Where I’ve seen too many fall from the never returning edge
As the waters run rapid like a raging beast below your feet
Waters so powerful even you cannot defeat
This is the place I’ve warned you of so many times before
The place where I can’t save you anymore
Your ears have grown deaf to me as your eyes have turned from blue to black
The devil of addiction has taken you as I fight to get you back

I’ve believed in you and all of your lies
I know I’m only a victim of my own demise
For every time you ever let me down, I have forgiven you,
I spent every minute of every day trying to see you through
I’ve begged and pleaded for you to live your life right
The only time your ears listen to me is when I’m all you have out here to even put up a fight
My struggles run deep through me as I have to ask myself why
Why is it I fight so hard for your freedom when you’re free you don’t even try
This gangster mentality you have taken on to be
Is only a mask to hide your pain and fear thinking nobody can see
I wish you could see or even care how your actions hurt more than you
They take more of my life every day and will some day effect your children too
Your words you speak are full of hate you have no respect or remorse
I’m afraid you will regret these things if you don’t change and get back on coarse
I taught you manners and respect I raised you not to steel or lie and try to do what’s right
You’ve come to a crossroad in your life when you’re hanging on by a string tied by a knot but not so tight
I pray if your given this last chance you understand what waits for you if you go down the wrong road
For next time son this ride I’ve rode with you I won’t ride again, you will carry your own load

God gives a mother the gift of a child to love and nurture all the days through
A boy or a girl but only one, yet he blessed our mother with two.
We came into this world on the very same day
Identical twins, just alike in every way.
We spent our days together in all that we would do.
My life isn’t the same here on earth without you.
I see you in my mirror and every picture that I take
I miss your smile and the funny faces we would make.
I know one day I will see you face to face again.
Happy Birthday My best friend, my sister my angel my twin.
I will see you today when I walk outside in the sun
For when I look beside me at my silhouette it reminds me there are two of us never just one.

One moment she lays watching his innocence glow across his soft little cheeks as he nestles closely beside her and falls quickly asleep.
She has lost so much more than she has gained in this life
As her body has grown weak and sickness overtakes her yet her will to go on still fights within her.
Once it was pills she took to keep her going or so she thought not knowing it was the pills that was killing her
Thoughts of giving up the fight often entered her tired soul as she fought  through her pain often times she wondered where she gained her strength and will to fight.
She held on to hope for the ones that had left her as thoughts of them returning were fading away
That little boy that lay nestled beside her and the man that she loves was the medicine she needed to fight for one more day.
Just as the others had gone now so did he
Now she lays all alone , no more bedtime prayers or supper at the table
No more knowing he’s sneaking behind me with a smile on his face thinking I can’t see him rushing to my bed to sleep.
He has no clue how much he means to me and how that precious little boy has kept his mawmaw alive just knowing she was with him almost every day.