I know that I'll never be enough for you.
It hurts,
Because your everything I want.
I want you.
You don't want me.
I wouldn't walk a thousand miles
But I'd tell you my deepest secrets.
I'd trust you
But would you trust me?
Could you trust me?
Could I be your everything and more?
Why can't you see that I still like you?
That I still hold on.
That I'm here.
You gave up on me.
You let me go and I don't even know why.
You continued to fly while I kept falling
Then I hit the ground.
I realized that you weren't coming to save me.
I realized that you stopped.
You stopped being my everything.
Gone.
Never coming back.
Alone
Now I'm alone.

I'm ****** up in the head
One step closer to suicidal
As a kid I thought I was happy
I misinterpreted.
I wasn't happy
I lived.
I lived for another day.
I sacrificed my happiness.
I let go.
its gone.
And  I can't bring it back.
I tried
I tried to love.
I tried everything.
The only thing left is to die...

*******
I never needed you anyways
A figment of my imagination
You didn't come to stay
You left when you wanted to
Leaving things behind
You left me standing there
Wet, damp eyes
The sobs reached your ears but you ignored it
You ignored me
You left me for dead
Wrapping the rope around my skin and kicking the chair
Was the sin I should've made.

Goodbye.

Lay me six feet under
Don't cover my scars
'I'm sorry' carved into my skin
A bullet wound disgracing my skin
A hole in my heart
Literally
Tell my mistakes
My imperfections
My good memories
The bad ones too
Let everyone know what made me
Publish my book
Set me free.

Crisp dollar bills fill your mind
Since when did greed consume you?
Why is it power is all that matters?
Why is love a non-factor?
When did you lose yourself?
Why did you let go?
Why did you stop believing?
I thought you were so much more.