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 May 2016 Kay
Steven Forrester
Have you ever been broken
Have you ever been beaten
Have you ever sat smoking
Looking for a reason
Why am I always on the other side
Looking in I see true happiness
And this glass
Attached
In between myself and my dream
I see it
I hear it
I feel it slipping through my fingers
Is there someone
Is there anyone
Who can pull me to the surface
My pain will always linger
Is there anyone
Is there someone
Who will caress my face
I've completely lost the thing
That brings
That drive to write a sing
Still I try
Wishing I could just die
But I just hide
Who I am inside
With a guard built up outside
My life just a lie
I'm completely broken
And why!
I've never hurt anyone on purpose
I do my best to see the good in others
Even without a purpose
I'm feeling as if I'm smothered
What I write here is all truth
Its what is me
Out there in the air
To the people reading this
Do any of you even care?
(c) Steven Forrester- From Diary of an Ominous Mind
 May 2016 Kay
Wyvern Queen
Pretend
 May 2016 Kay
Wyvern Queen
You're so pretty
They're lying
I know

I'm so self confident
No you aren't
I'm almost pompous
I thought you hated yourself

My confidence lies in my appearance
Rarely
But not usually in my actions
You hate everything you do

A persona
        A lie
                                                   A poser, *if you will


Oh, but none of that matters when you say you love yourself
The thoughts are passing
Intrusive
Just a bit of anxiety

I wish you could see how it feels
It's not the normal self hate
Not when you pretend

So surprise, my friends
You're queen is living a lie
And once you've read this
*She'll pretend it never happened
I'm sorry you had to learn this way
 May 2016 Kay
Jennifer Buzzell
With hate increased,
My whole decreases
I can't forget, both of us once existed
Now, into a body too small for my big dreams, I'm condensed

In this empty room of mine
Telling myself repeatedly "I'm fine"
Moving silently, invisibly
In an endless mystery
Here comes the tears I cried from
agony

It feels like I am the only one who live with this tragedy
It feels like they're all looking, but I don't want them to see
The inside of me
How am i suppose to be everything they except me to be

Like me , they are not able to abide
I wish that I didn't have to hide
Please come back, I need you by my side
You're the only one who can hear what i really want to say
So inside, days after days,
It stays
I don't know why it happened, why it had to be this way

It haunts me when I think of how it could have been,
When i'm questioning why this happened, what could this possibly mean
This is the questions that I ask
To live away from you is my task
But this is an impossible feat,
My life without you is incomplete
I feel like everyday that passes, I become increasingly erased
I cannot be related
Again, my fears have to be covered

I want to meet myself with someone else's point of view
So my mind will be anew
Oh so desperately, for the look inside my eyes
That I can't disguise

I battle the demons inside, ever since I were five
Keeping them alive
Do they really need to survive?
With incertitude, I ran away from all the pain
shattered soul I have obtain
Oh, so ******, it was clearly impregnated into my brain
Obviously stuck in my head
Am I just trying to prove that i'm not already dead?

I am so deep in my thoughts , i could die drowned by them
Anyway, I am nothing else than a name
Yes, truth just being told,
But I am not that bold
Look in the somber tones
Of these ghastly wounds
I am like you, a listening ear
Turning into rain of tears

If darkness is where I belong
Then why am I afraid?
If this is what I've become
Then what was the choice I made?

A chain links us together, but it's a little broken by the distance between us, and nobody seems to care
Who cares when a thought doth enter?
When I have all, except the power?
I can't dispel the intruder
I am all, except the master

I'm just scared that I might fail, afraid of trying
Instead of standing, I am waiting
I'm stuck in the memory of the past and now i'm screaming
The fear tries to swallow my soul, my tiny acid tears are dripping
Too much dominos behind me are falling
The only thing I can do now is counting the hours that doesn't have an end,
Wondering if the breaks will ever mend

The pain that you has seen in my eyes is now bigger in my heart
But it consoles me that you had a new start
And even if i'm always reflecting the past that I will probably never recover
So the pain that i feel because we cant be together
Even if the reflection of the past is here, Im so glad to hear you confide, however
Even if the past is just a reflection, don't forget that you can tell me
whatever
And i'll always love you the same Wherever,
Forever

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