Her skin
Soft like a newborn.
Her legs wrapped around my waist.
Her eyes are staring into mine
I see the stars forming.
In her cornia.
Her body heat
Slowly elevating mine.
Her lips tight against mine.
She is all I've ever wanted
And here she is
Upon my waist.
Upon my body
upon my mind
Here she is,
Her muscles tightening
Her breathing rapidly quickening
Her soul flying
Her lovely sighing.
She is all I've ever wanted
She looks so perfect tonight.
She seems to always know
just what I like.
Her chest up against mine
Her heartbeat strong
Her breaths now so long.
And it is everything for me
Not to lose myself.
She is all I've ever wanted
She is the one for me
And she cried the day
I got on one knee
Here we are
Alone tonight
My hands on her curves
Her hands gripping tight
She is
Suduction
But my, I dont mind
She can have her way
After all
She is all I've ever wanted

And when i saw your name there
I no longer felt the oh so familiar
Butterflies in my stomach
Tugging at my heartstrings
Chaining me down
Clamming me up everytime i glnaced at you
Sneaking glances
Doing everything to get your attention
Saying hi when you never really gave a ****
And then I learned more about you,
About differences that we could never overcome
I heard a few negative things about you
And i
Convinced myself that they were all wrong
You were perfect, velvety and smooth
You were you
You could do no wrong
But then i witnessed it
Something so trivial and yet
It shook me out of this trance i was in,
Opened up my eyes to all your flaws
We all have flaws
But some of yours were inexcusable to me.
And then i came across your name again
And i
Felt nothing
And then,
I smiled.

Flowers and petals cover my pain.
The sound of your voice drives me insane.
You I won't miss.
As you ******* a kiss.
Go ahead throw my heart down the drain.

He gave me all these letters and we have all these pictures but yet again he sits there and says our relationship ment nothing that he never loved me for anything more then my body and the fact that my house was a roof he could stay under and somewhere he was provided food and safety. He said I deserved to die after telling me a hundred times that if I died I he would die to because I was every breath he took that I was the very air that he breathes. He told me that with out me he would be lost but now he's telling me the complete opposite. He promised me he would never hurt me and now every word that comes out of his mouth is like a knife stabbing into my heart and into my back. And I remember how many times he told me that he loved me just to turn around and take it all back. He told me that he loved me in November he told me to leave you so I can be with him he told me that he would be with me forever and that he would never hurt me or lie to me but then again I went and I wasted 6 months with him just so he can go and hurt me and lie to me and leave me. I thought I was in love with him but then again that's not the first time I thought I was in love with somebody....I'm sorry

I want to be alone but I don't want to be alone. I want somebody but I don't want to have to rely on somebody. I want to have feelings but I don't want to feel pain. nowadays we lose more than we gain. You got good grades you're judged for them you got bad grades you're dumb for them. I'm trying to grow up in a society where I'm told to be myself. But then again they're all trying to change me trying to rearrange me I don't know who to be  or where I'm going I set my standards too high while they set theres too low.   My whole life I've been a failure they told me I wouldn't make it that I'd give up just like my mum don't you see I'm trying so hard to prove them wrong? just because I got good grades doesn't mean there's nothing going on at home my family's ****** up I don't have nobody call me miss independent because I grew up on my own. I was lonely. It was hard for me. I've been through a lot from suicidal thoughts to anorexias evil plots.

Your kiss was like lightning but lightning meant pain and I remember I told you it was never meant to be this way then I pushed you away but you were never here to stay so I watched the winds blow you away and how many times do I have to scream I love you for you to come back my way I know that the clouds filled up our skies and the rain that fell was equivalent to the tears that feel from our eyes but through the darkness your blue eyes were a reminder of the summer sky and the warmth of your body next to mine held me together throughout the winter and even though the last few months we slept back to back it was better then sleeping alone. I know that I need you like flowers need sun and I always knew that you were the one ..