Not hot, not cold
Not pro, not con
*Are you that afraid to make a decision?

1,
Run, run fast
2,
I'm coming to you
3,
I cannot find you, where are you?
4,
Are you there?  I'm about to catch you
5,
Don't try to hide
6,
You're about to be caught
7,
I can hear you
8,
I'm near you
9,
Hah, you're dead, i told you not to hide
10,
*inaudible sounds of laughter and shouts

Those 2 words, keep writing
Made me feel so appreciated
I feel overjoyed, thanks for the support
I'll keep writing,
Until words stop flowing,
Until my eyes dry from crying
Until I feel happy
and I know that i'm very far from that
Until then, I'll keep writing.

I'll just act as if everything's going well
So that my friends will not dwell
In my problematic well
That is full of problems and is a hell
Because I know no one is willing to help
And if they discover what is wrong with me
They'll automatically run away and shrivel
So as long as I can hide my liability
Everything will go smoothly

I don't really know what i'm writing
But I know I needed an outlet,
I'm feeling down these days,
And I came to a point that dying was the best option
However, I have to fight, I needed to live
For my dreams and for my future
I still have no idea what i'm writing
But I know writing helps
It may not ease the pain
But it will slowly heal my wounds

To be honest, i'm not okay
But i'm too afraid to say
Because you might not stay

Those 3 words, "i'm not okay"
Why is it so hard to say?
Can't I just be honest,  
And expect you to stay?