I just wanna be free
Free from the misery

My walls are high
No one can reach me

Flying high above the mountains
Above all those in misery

I'm gone with the wind
Im gonna be free
Free from all the misery

- Shelly Ramos

I want to slip into a deep sleep just for a moment
To take a small break from all responsibilities
To be able to hear my breathing
To dream in my own fantasy
Just 5 minutes for a deep sleep
that is desperately needed

He did throw the ***** on my back!
And it wouldn’t stop coming out.
It gave me a sense of fascination,
And lewd.
I can not explain objectively why

if i ever knew where i stood
i would walk

if i have kids
id push
i don't want them to feel like this

i wish it was easier
to be where i want

that requires knowing
and who does

What’s funny is that I can do anything
I can wake up early or late
I can eat whatever and try to enjoy it
I can be healthy
Unhealthy
I can be funny or serious
I can provide advice
Insight
I can convince myself everything is falling apart
Or I can see the good things and press on
Both are true
I can preach understanding and love
Spout mindfulness and dissect psyche
And at the same time I can walk the line of sanity on a Tuesday
I can present together, safe, smart, ahead
And at the same time crave those things to the point they are unattainable