Quiet
   Shy
     Girls
         Are
           Sometimes
The
     Loudest
             Ones
                      In
                         The
                              Room

I am beautiful
    I am beautiful
         I am beautiful
       I
        Am
             Beautiful

I’m not fat
   I’m not fat
       I’m not fat
     I’m
         Not
             Fat

I can write
     I can write
          I can write
      I
        Can
            Write

I am fierce
      I am fierce
          I am fierce
       I
         Am
               Fierce

I am special
    I am special
          I am special
      I
        Am
            Special

Like in our early years
When we had to write things down
Three times or more
Maybe saying these words
Will help me believe there true
Just a little more....

My eyes dance
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
My heart flutters
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
When you look at me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Touch me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Whisper in my ear
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Giving me goosebumps
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sliding it inside of me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Making music, between the sheets
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
******* to this sick beat
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sweet love, bodies colliding
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Juices flowing, lick it up
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Turn it up, throw me in the shower
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Call me your ***** girl
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You want to stick it where?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You made me a freak
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Do whatever you want to me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Let’s go all night
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
******* me is where it’s at....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Step 1: Get out of bed
Step 2: Look in the mirror
Step 3: Practice your smile
Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes
Step 5: Conceal the dark circles
Step 6: Breathe
The curtains are almost up
Step 7: Lock down the pain
Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest
Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind
Step 10: Choke down the sobs
Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes
Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat
You’ve put on this show a million times
Step 13: Don’t let them see
Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling

Hello everyone,

  I'm so very sorry … I feel horrible doing this, but I have no choice. You see, I have published my first book on Amazon/Kindle! This piece (and many others) had to be taken down because they do not allow published material to be available online for free. (Go figure) I wanted to leave the shell of the posts because I felt compelled to leave all your helpful and loving comments. (Silly sentimental, I know), but I also didn't want to just have the pieces disappear without an explanation. I feel bad enough as it is!

  I owe ALL of you so, SO much for all of your reads, love, and support. It was YOU that gave me the gumption to FINALLY get off my **** and publish! Thank you all for the warm comments, camaraderie, and encouragement! I will still be here, reading, uploading and just being the Rascal that I am. How could I EVER leave you guys?

  The book is called “The Way I See It – FictionPhilosophySoul Food” and it will be FREE for the first few days on Kindle Select, so watch for it, if you are interested. I hope that you go and grab it. If you do, I would also hope that you find it worthy, you would leave me a good review. That will help me get in the public eye! Soon afterwards (2-3 days or so), it will be available in paperback.

Find the book(s) here: www.amazon.com/author/jeff.gaines

Or find the book(s), and all about me, here: www.JeffGaines.world

  Soon after, I also hope to have my first novel (a supernatural thriller), called “Wanderer” available as well!

  Wish me luck!

                                Big, Biggest Love,

                                               Jeff Gaines