Please God
Don't make me prove I can live without her
I'm tired of plot twists
Of separation and reconvening

I couldn't make sense
Out of losing her
This love is immune to lies

I don't ask myself where life will take me
Anymore

I just want to know if she'll be there.

Love is so strange at this altitude

I crave going downtown
Feeling your hair follicles against my tongue
I want a cup of tea when I wake up
With nothing but your morning breath in it
I want your odor to stick to my clothes

I used to hate the quiet
Whenever we were together
I feared an awkward pause
Would bury our love alive
And now I crave the silence
I wait for a memory to cross your mind
One you’ve never told me about
A chance to get to know you again.

I love hearing you let guilt off your chest
I want to dive
Deep into the crevices if your shame
Planting seeds of love in every nook and cranny

I hope your life is a buffet of achievements
I hope you cross the mind
Of every person who wronged you
I hope the most beautiful men
Can’t help but look into your eyes
I hope the sweat dripping out of your pores
Is filled with confidence

Love is so strange at this altitude

I hope we have the discipline
To handle our love responsibly

No, we don’t need it
Every second
Every hour
Or every day

I hope our love is a sacred home
A holy departure
From the trials and tribulations
Of everyday life
An invincible field of comfort
Which we can always fall into

Wow, love is strange at this altitude.

Let my love give you
A pep in your step
Let my love revive you
Share it with anyone
Anytime
Anywhere
It will always stay inside you

So if a day is long
Doubt fills your mind
Or you feel a little alone
Just close your eyes
Relax, exhale
My love will come and take you home

Life has two euphorias
One is the reason we study
The reason we work hard
Dress up
And spend money

The other
The reason we wake up
The reason our eyes open
The reason we breath
I hope it always finds its way to you.

Sometimes the world is just noise
And it's easier to tune out when we want
And back in again when we know a song's about to play
But the joke's on us
Because the beauty of the music
Is directly proportional to the confusion of the sound

The phrase 'take a chance' is too vague
Instead, treat your life as though the universe were literally communicating with you at every moment
As though it were engineered for you to find purpose and love
As though everything were a sign

There will be times when something catches your attention
That's inconvenient
Maybe even scary

Follow it
Convenience takes you around in circles
Don't confuse it with fate.

I'm not afraid of being a sucker
Not afraid of losing
Not afraid of opening up
For a terse response

I'm not afraid that you don't love me
I'm not afraid that it feels off
Or like nothing at all

I'm not afraid of noise
Or confusing sounds

I'm afraid there is something
And I missed it
I'm afraid that if I listened harder
I would hear a song

Something we both agree on
Feelings are weird
Most can be thought through
And they go away with time
A small number are persistent
And a persistent one
I feel for you
I think that I love you
But what kind of judge am I?
Maybe it's just a bit of oxytocin
Every time I see your face
Or something shallow like
Your nice ****
I don't know what to call it
But it doesn't go away

Attraction was first
But equally as powerful
Came admiration
Your intellect
Your beauty
Your ease
And when I lost you
Came jealousy
You were a winner
And I was a loser

But you know me
I'm obsessive
Intense
My desire for you
Perhaps to be you
Separate normally
Came together
Motivated me
Pushed me

But whenever I thought of you
I was ashamed
That I cared still
Embarrassed because
Life moves on
People move on
But the feeling never did

I just wanted to know
What I had to do
And why I couldn't do it
Why I wasn't enough
Maybe I annoyed you
You always thought I was full of ****
Maybe my ****'s too small
Or my legs are too skinny
Or worst of all
Maybe it's nothing really
Out of sight out of mind
Right place wrong time

The hardest part about losing
Isn't the losing
It's that I never give up
I feel the need
To pursue any chance
No matter how small
So the hardest part about losing
Isn't denial
Embarrassment
Or pain
It's the part of me
That's stubborn enough
To wait
On a phone that might never ring
A touch I might never feel
Memories I might never make