I only loved you
when it was
Convenient
I'm really sorry
that I  didn't think
of you
( When it really mattered.)
What's the matter with my
soul? It isn't correct
but nothing feels wrong.

I feel something , I don't know
if it's "sorry".

Looking into the void.
I think I seen you.

Reached out.
We met again.

For the first time.

It was love


Possibly maybe.

holding on to right now.


Frozen. your face perfection.

Eyes closed.

Waiting so anxiously for you
to open them.

You don't.
   My heart arrested by your beauty.
   Shatters when you chose not
   to look at me.



I don't feel any signs of growing.

He broke me
I wrote again
I cried again

I lost myself inside my own mind
I convinced myself that he was the one
But he never was

He was many things
both good and bad
but he was never mine

The problem with that is
I tried so hard to make him matter
I told myself lie after lie

He burned and burned
Just like a moth I was drawn to his fire

He is not worth these words
Or the hundreds I've given him before
He deserves to be happy
and so do I

We never deserved one another
Yet somehow we ended up here
I fell in love with the boy who burned a
and now this is me falling out

i hope he can't get enough of me
even though i shouldn't want anything to do with him