Jasmine dryer

Jasmine dryer Nov 2018

you thought when i opened up i was fearful
i was
not because I don't want to get hurt
but because I didn't want to hurt you

but now your locked in.

Jasmine dryer Nov 2018

yesh

i don't pop pills because its fun
i do it because i wanna feel numb
theres a huge difference world

Jasmine dryer Nov 2018

numb

i wanna be numb
i'm falling back
so i pop some pills
and wallow in my own self pity
i know its bad
but i do it anyway
i think that the worst part is

i don't care

#pills #drugs #help

Jasmine dryer Nov 2018

they say we all have a life story

they say we all have a story
but mine feels like someone dipped the pages in a gasoline
threw it into a fire
and watched it burn
burn into nothing
but ash

and then burned that too

#sad #life #story #help #book #pages

Jasmine dryer Nov 2018

A cry for help! {mental prison}

hey!
hey you!
can you hear me?
you can?
oh god finally!
help me!
i'm trapped!
this cell!
its dark!
and cold...
and the eyes!
the eyes are watching meeee
don't back away!
im not inane!
i'm trapped!
i'm trapped in my own mind...
and i don't know how much time i have!
oh no the guards are coming!
wait where are you going?
come back!
don't leave!
help....

hahahahaha

#sad #help #mental #insane #rescue

Jasmine dryer Nov 2018

vent once more

i'm bold
i move fast
i'm hard to track
my hearts cold
basically ice
my soul
sold
my face?
cracked and shaded
a smile
a mask
and i hope that one day at last
that i'll simmer
slow down
hang out
love properly
be free
and the glue that hold this monstrosity to my face
forcing me to be fake
will fade
now that would be the day
i am
would be
me

its nice to dream

but i know it'll end in a nightmare

#sad #mask #fade #help #thoughts #vent

Jasmine dryer Nov 2018

stuck

sometimes i get the realization
a shift
that life is ok
so i try to take off my mask
so people can see me
and i pull on the mask
i tug
i pull
i scratch at it
but it won't work
thats when i realize
its stuck

i'm stuck

are you stuck as well?

#sad #stuck #mask #help