Iz - Hello Poetry

Iz Dec 2018

Mean it

How long
After you told me
You loved me
Did you realize
It was just lust
On your mind

#love #lust #realize

Iz Dec 2018

Eden

A love so sweet
It tasted
Of forbidden
Fruit

Iz Dec 2018

Growth

There are people who don’t know
The wrong things I have done
The lives I have disrupted
And I like it that way
I like knowing not eveyone needs to judge what I have reaped and sowed for many years
I have changed in unimaginable ways
I promise I am not who you once knew
And I’m sorry for the pain I have caused
I know there is much
But to the ones who love me
And know there’s more than meets the eye
But nonetheless admire who I am in present day
Thank you for the encouraging love and support you bring me
To be a new me each day and grow farther and farther from who I have been

#growth #acknowledgement #understanding

Iz Dec 2018

Drip Drip Drop

It's like I've been laid out flat on my back
and the whole world is pressing against me
I cant breath
I cant speak
All I can do is feel
But I don't like the piercing sensation of the skyscrapers in my chest
Much similar to the knives you left jammed into my back,
Won't you sit with me and do me the gracious favor,
Just watch me bleed.

Iz Dec 2018

*****

The morning after Is filled with
Crusty eyes
And an unstable balance
I don’t think I’m sober yet

#intoxicated

Iz Dec 2018

Relearning love

As I child I would pull apart lizards
And throw toads against my house
Because I thought that’s what love was
Hurting the ones you cared about
Thank you dad
For putting that idea in my head
That everyone who loved you
Loved you so much they wanted to see your beauty forever sealed by death

#jaded

Iz Dec 2018

For those never heard

YOUR TRAUMA
IS NOT DETERMINED
BY
YOUR AGE
YOUR TRAUMA
IS VALID
NO MATTER HOW OLD YOU ARE
NO MATTER WHAT RACE YOU ARE
NO MATTER YOUR ****** ORIENTATION
NO MATTER WHAT YOUR JOB IS
YOUR TRAUMA WILL ALWAYS BE VALID
KEEP DOING WHATEVER IT TAKES TO HEAL THAT PAIN

No one can deny you of the love and understanding you deserve, I hear you, I hear your stories, I feel your pain, the pain I know runs deeper than flesh, I am proud of you and how far you have gotten and how much you have healed

#trauma #recovery #i #am #proud #of #you