It's 3am

I'm on the phone
No one's awake and I'm alone

It's 3am

The radio's on
Songs are played on lonely station

It's 3am

I'm in my bed
My eyes are open and sleep has fled

It's 3am

I'm on the balcony
The sky is dark and just quite scary

It's 3am

Some windows have lights
Could they also not sleep tonight

It's 3am

I'm still awake
When will life ever give me a break

I dont know who I am
Or where Im going
And this is such a tight jam
I havent tried escaping
But as far as they can see
I got it figured out
And I know how
To go about this
All this change

I used to have a light of guidance
To help me move forward
That light has been lost
Just like me

I have hope that the answers will come to mo
I have fear to search for them
I shall only glance over
But not go digging

What if my next move destroys me
What if I never make a move again

I look to my left and I see
What my old self would do
I look to my right and I see
Impulsive decision making

I am not the old me
But I havent made a new me

When I look forward
Ahead
Where the future lies
I see nothing
Something is in the way
Could it just be me
The world
My emotions
Thoughts

I still have nothing figured out
No plans
No ideas
Just patience
And curiosity
No clear vision
No direction