So much to say,
No way to say it.

Maybe if I move to mars,
I will find what I am looking for,
No loud noises, and no cars,
Your smile, three inches from the door,

Restless running through my mind
I have an insane thirst for sane thoughts
The hidden demons will shine,
Call the doctor, I'm in need of shots,

I've been fighting for so long,
uphill battles pave the way to light
Masks lie, what they say is wrong,
on the way I always have to fight

Loudly Siren sings her song
She whispers I don't belong

I open my eyes and I lay exactly where I would expect
my mind is calm but nothing crosses the river
my bedroom looks the same as it has
but there is a green hue, and the sky outside is purple
I wish to investigate, but my feet won't cooperate
Led blocks carry me to the window and icicles draw back curtains
the royal colors shine over the town
like a wounded animal crawling into a cave to die

On my desk is a mass
frozen fingers set it atop my head
and only wondrous noises pierce my ears
but there is no sound for them to recieve
Crawling outside, everyone is still
Their masks unmoved, they wait for eternity

and I believe this is a dream but how to know?
its not like I can step outside the outside
but whats behind that?
I stare into the black hole, nothing shows through
and I have finally found god
but before I rejoice, the masks stare at me
still, but moving in calamity it all starts to ring true
and then I see
and use my eyes to realize real lies

I thought I could swallow my fear,
But I guess you could taste it in my kiss.

sometimes i feel like going back in time
to try to tell myself things that i didn't know then
to try to save myself from the ache that made my heart bend

he didn't love you for your soul
he didn't love you at all

he's not going to stay
don't hold out that hope

please let him go
please let him go
please let him go

because i'm still trying to say these things to myself today
and i don't know for how long i'm going to have to
until i begin to realize it was all just a mistake
and i've confused another stranger with a soulmate.