Malia

Malia Oct 2023

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.

I know it’s after hours
But I’ve stared in the mirror
For hours
And I can’t do it anymore.

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.

The problems fade away
When you face away from them
For a little while.

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.

When there is nowhere to go,
Nowhere to hide,
You will find
That your problems find you.

Song version:

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.
It’s getting late
But I hate the tears.

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.
I know that it’s trouble
To not face your fears.

But I can’t.

Not today.

When the problems stack up,
I just put them away.

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.
It’s getting late
But I hate the tears.

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.
I know that it’s trouble
To not face your fears.

Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah

I don’t wanna go home,
But I can’t stay here.
When the day grows short
The night always appears.

I don’t wanna go home,
But I can’t stay here.
I’ve walked the long road
And the end isn’t near.

#home #problems #avoidance

Malia Sep 2023

𝑔𝑜𝑜𝒹𝒷𝓎𝑒

When the floating moment passes
Everything crashes down.
A second, a millisecond, a microsecond
It’s short and long and short once more.

Nobody expects the end.
But we know it is coming
Because it always does.

The wind whispers to me:

𝑔𝑜𝑜𝒹𝒷𝓎𝑒

I’ve been really busy with school, so I haven’t posted in forever lol

Also, a friend of mine is like weirdly against italics, t h i s, and bold…what’s your opinion on that?

I know I totally overuse emphasis XD

#goodbye #wind #end

Malia Aug 2023

clear your heart * cross your mind

clear your heart
and follow your mind
turn impossibilities
into things you can feel inside
clear your heart
and meet my eyes
even when your wings get heavy
you will find a way to fly

originally a song

#song #flying #impossibilities #crossyourheart #clearyourmind

Malia Aug 2023

The Bus

Terribly
Terribly hot
“…No way…”
“…today was really…”
“..every day…”
“…she’s been acting so…”
The conversations
Blend and babble
Around me like
A brook and the bird-calls
In the mountain green
The leather seat
Sticks to my skin like glue
I bobble and bounce and I
ACK! Gosh **** turns!

on the school bus rn

#schoolbus #bus #observations

Malia Aug 2023

If I Dare

If I dare
To let go
I release
My control
And I can’t
Be here alone
With volatile
Sticks and stones.

If I dare
To be free
Then I’ll have
No more of me
Because shackles cold
And leashes gold
Are better than
The days of old.

BLT Merriam-webster daily word challenge! “Volatile: tending to erupt into violence : EXPLOSIVE“

Ngl, I don’t even really know what have of this poem means XD

#rhyme #selfsabotage

Malia Aug 2023

Reticent

I don’t hate you.

I’m just reticent.

Reluctant to share where
This hesitation came from
But I swear I care,
I swear I care.

It doesn’t make sense,
This reticence is like barbed wire fence
Around my heart so when
You try to touch it h u r t s.

𝘐 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘶𝘭𝘵 𝘐 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘶𝘭𝘵 𝘐 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘶𝘭𝘵 𝘐 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳-

BLT’s Merriam-Webster word of the day challenge! “Reticent is often used as a synonym of reserved to describe someone who does not readily or openly talk to others. Despite objections from some, reticent is also often used as a synonym of reluctant.” -Merriam-Webster

Malia Aug 2023

daughter // trigger

i’m not a daughter
i’m a trigger
i’m not person
i’m a gun
every problem
i make bigger
reminds me i 𝘢𝘮 one

i’m not a daughter
i’m a trigger
i’m the stain on your white blouse
and everybody, everybody knows
i am the darkness in this house.

I actually wrote this originally as a poem, but then I put a melody to it and I might make it a fully-fledged song later!

#daughter #trigger #familyproblems #problemchild