One look at you, and there it goes.
A shame to say, but I have froze...


This tsunami of memories floods my mind.
Inescapable. Unavoidable.
And slowly I become a prisoner that has been left behind.

You.
The one thing I have desired.
You.
The one that tore my soul away.
You.
The one that controls me even when you are gone.

How?
How is it that one can ruin my life repeatedly?
I suffer the pain over and over again.
No matter how hard I try,
It is inescapable.
I am trapped.
And all
because
of
You.



-FreeMind

My mind is intoxicated with your lies.
I need you to save me, make me feel alive...


-FreeMind

And like a fool,
I let you take me to the dark,
Where you would rule.
"But will you let me see the spark?"

You tricked me with your smile,
And now I am trapped,
But can't compile
There reason for this dark desire...

Lies! All silly little lies.
This is your game,
But whats the prize?

And now I know...


I was a Marionette.
Made to entertain you, due to threat.
Perform in the theater when you were bored.
Was I not warned?
"Oh how I wish I was adored!"

And all of a sudden, my strings got old,
They broke apart.
The puppet is sold.
I thought I was smart,
But am no longer in your tiny little heart.



-FreeMind

And all of a sudden I felt it spark inside of me.
The struck of the lightning bolt had diminished the emptiness within my fallen Soul,
I was finally able to feel.

Feel the warmth of the sun on my pale skin, politeness of lonely strangers,
The energy, the excitement, the friendliness, Happiness.
All these emotions came rushing back!

I was alone. Hardly anything changed. And yet it all felt different.
Step by step, day by day, Life became better.
I stopped getting the daily visits from Death.
It left me without a "Goodbye", and I was glad.
Glad that Life became my new friend.

But most importantly, I am glad that I can finally enjoy the small joys,
The small acts of kindness that Life brings to me.

I feel everything but emptiness.
At last I am full.
And all because I am finally free -
From You.



-FreeMind

Everything was falling apart.

Life was being crushed by all these Hopes and Dreams
That one has created for themselves but could never reach.
No matter the effort, Nothing worked out.
It was an endless cycle of disappointment...

You were there too. You stood and watched.
And yet were blind to all that was happening.
You did not feel that fire,
You did not feel the pain,
You ignored the tsunami of issues that consumed me whole.

How could you?
How could you be so oblivious to the torture I was put through?
Why did you?
Why did you leave when I needed you most?



Death is a joke and I can't stop laughing...



-FreeMind