As the  clouds of my grief begin to lift
I feel my sadness begin to drift

My thoughts and memories of you will never leave
But now,  a new life I must weave

I didn't want it this way
I wish that you had decided to stay
But now as my world is a little less grey
I will start my new life without delay

I will keep close our memories that made me smile
and think of you for a while.

I lie awake every night, with thoughts of your face forever in my sight.

My heart is heavy and full of sorrow, knowing that there will never be another tomorrow.

You were my partner, my lover and my best friend, I thought I would be with you till the end.  Your passing so soon feels like my heart has been ripped out of me.

While I am filled with grief, I hope you have finally found your peace.  

Till we meet again

Cry all you want, I have shed my tears
At times, I still scream to the sky, WHY?,
but still no one hears.

You're gone, you're dead, you chose not to stay
You made your bed and there you lay.

My life moves on, slowly, and in no direction
I often sit and stare blankly at my own reflection

Truth is you hurt me, you killed me
At least the part no one can see.

The dark rings around my eyes come as no surprise
Now that my lonliness is realised.

I miss you

I am so tired of being here
Surpressed by all my childish fears
Living without you
How can I ever love again?  The way I loved you
You blasted your way into my world
then you left, no word no note, no sad goodbye
So when you threw yourself off that bridge
you also killed a part of me.
I'm tired of being here, alone,  without you

When I see that picture of you,  I cry
When I think of you,  I cry
When I see the necklace you bought me, I cry
When I think of your smile, your laugh, your look, I cry
When I see your clothes, I cry
When I think of promises you made, I cry
When I feel I am suddenly OK, I realise I am not, I cry
When I talk to your Mother, we cry
When I hear New York on the news, I cry
I cry cry cry and I am sick of it.   But still I cry.
You jumped, you died, your choice but now my pain and I cry
I am all cried out
I love you