I pretend love songs are about me

I'm done falling in love with men, it's time for me to fall in love with God

He's been in love with me all this time. Wanting only my heart

My life is falling apart and I'm speaking to dead people. He's telling me there's peace and that he's happy.
I kinda felt his peace and happiness.
My connection to him escapes me though, is he speaking to me or am I speaking to myself.
I think I want peace and happiness and to know why the happiest boy I knew killed himself.

Now that you've found me after 7 years, it doesn't seem magical or romantic like in the movies.
You have to understand. I thought I'd never hear from you again.
God this is supposed to be a miracle, a red string connection...why does it seem ordinary, kind of boring.
Disappointing, being found by a man who's already kept.

I know
I know what I am to do
God showed me
Has been showing me
But only today
Do I know.
Let go of all
the sins
that make you human
to try to be like Him.
I can now forgive my brother,
and learn to love again.

sleep in the day,
save all my strength
to cry into the night