dear Mother--

like nails on a chalkboard
the sounds of your
Cruel Words
hurt.

a biting, pinching, sharp
little hurt.
a string, a twinge.

it felt like a
punch, an ache
a WHAM!
each day
You ignored Me.

Mother, did you
forget Me?
your Daughter,
your girl?

your hate
no-
your disdain
no-
your disregard
for Me
feels like ice in My veins.

you've poisoned My heart.

do You remember?
I grew inside You
came from your flesh.

dear Mother--
is this your revenge?

you've changed
like my dreams at night

they used to be sweet
now they're haunting me

I smoked to fill my lungs
to **** the flowers that grew there
the ones you planted last december

I sometimes look at myself and worry
That inside i'm always going to be that awkward kid
The one who grew up into his face
But cant seem to grow up into his mind