Many follow other gods
Gods of broken hearts
Shattered dreams
Drugs
Alcohol
That guy
That girl
The list never ends
I'm here to tell you it's all just a trend
A temporary covering of the real pain that just causes more pain
It leaves a nasty stain
I'm here to tell you it can be washed away
By the God of Love
Jesus loves you more than you could ever imagine
He loves you beyond understanding
What happens when those gods break you
Many turn into people full of hate and rage
Others are depressed and anxious
I know the God who loves where there is hate
He is the light in the dark
He puts back together what the world tears apart
False gods break hearts with pain
The true God breaks them with love
He's holding his hand out to you
So don't slap it away
Take it and experience love beyond the universe
His love is faster than you could ever run
His love stretches farther than galaxies
His grace is deeper than the deepest oceans
Jesus saves
Follow Jesus
It's the best decision you will ever make

I like you
Words so hard to speak
Hiding in plain sight
Yet so easy to flee

I want you
Such a nice ring
The heart is fluttering
But the mind is afraid

I need you
Such simple embrace
The want of passion
In such pleasant grace

Fear of rejection
Tightens our bonds
The words we wish to say
Never finding it's way there

Words we find so simple
But hiding they do like
For when we try to speak
Our mind says no way

Like
Want
Need
These words wont do

The mind is a safe place
Words get lost
Wanting to reach out
But the fear is oh so real

I wish feelings didn't exist
But they do
And they persist to ruin my life.
All this strife.
Just because three guys
Imagine me as their future wife.

How did I get here?
Keep reading if you want to hear
But please, no fangirl tears.

It starts in my early years.
I met him.
He was my best friend.
He was my first crush.
I was his.
I left for another school.
We hadn't seen each other since.

Middle school.
I met a boy my first year there.
It was infatuation upon first greeting

The second year I finally took up conversation with him.
I fell harder into my feelings.

The next year,
He was mine.
And I was his.
If only it stayed like this.
First love.
First kiss.
Our love was pure bliss.
It's what I will always miss.
And it was my fault.
I ruined it.
I can't do anything about it.

Summer camp.
A friend.
Later a close friend.
Now, super close.
Very close friends.
We know each other inside and out.
We're always there for each other.
Always.
Things went farther.

Everything caught up.
My kindergarten friend goes to my school.
My middle school boyfriend is friends with him.
Apparently, they're cousins.
My ex/ guy friend still likes me.
My kindergarten friend likes me.
My kindergarten friend took me to homecoming.
Later, the boys fight.
I don't understand why girls want to be fought over.
It was awful.
Later, my camp friend and I confess our feelings.
So.. things happened.
I couldn't be happier,
But long distance *****.

I miss you.
What's not to miss.
You're so..
Perfect.
You don't see it.
Sure.
Maybe you don't see it.
I do.
It's all I see when I look at you.
Talk to you.
You don't see what I see.
You don't see it because of what You've been through.
I understand.
I truly do.
But you're perfect the way you are.

Your dark hair.
Your soft, smooth skin.
Your perfect smile.
Your brown eyes that
Turn to gold in sunlight.
Your thin body.
Your sense of humor.
Your outlook on life.

And I love that about you.
I love you.
I love you so much.
You'll never understand how much.
Never.
And I know you love me too.
We'll always be there for each other.
Always.

People don't understand
The love we have for each other.
They never will.
We love each other in every way possible.
No one will ever understand. And that's okay.

We're caring people
Because of our dark pasts.
It's
Darker
Than
We
Let
On
Only we know the truth about
Each other's past.
Present.
We try and help each other
To a better future.

We're each other's other half.
But it's not like that.
We're each other's soulmate.
But not like that.
We're meant for each other.
But not like that.
No.
It is like that.

I wish it was only hours away,
But sometimes
Hours feel longer than days.
The days often feel like years
And I miss you so much that there are tears.
Time drags on and lingers
And as it does, you stay just out of reach,
At the tip of my fingers.

I am yours and you are mine.
You give me a feeling above Cloud 9

Unfortunately, we can't physically be together,
It will all be fine.
Just patience and hope will get us through,
My love,
Don't be afraid for I will always want you.
No one can claim me.
No can take me.
No one can touch me.
No one but you.
For me, it will always be you.

As I long for your touch
And the sound of your voice,
I reminisce on all of our memories.
The times we laughed,
The times we cried.
The times we became vulnerable
and threw away our shred of pride.
When we would open up
And tell our own little truths.
We'd share insecurities,
Thoughts,
Rants,
Theories,
Jokes.
We still do and
We've become so close.
We keeping getting closer
And yet, for us there is is such a
Far distance between