Eye to Eye

I fight,
I scream,
I bleed,
I breathe..

Shining bright
Like a fiery beacon
The piano plays
And echos through the hallways..

God and I don't see eye to eye
So I sit here pondering why
Everything went wrong in my life.

Was it the choices I made?
The best friend who abandoned me?
The voices in my head that I drown out daily?

Or?

The father who beat me?
The woman who ran off with my kid?

I write to drown out the sadness
I write to drown out the madness
I write to continue on in my life
I write to remember this strife.

God and I never saw eye to eye.

Hazy
Blurring
Between the lines
Fall into the cracks

Forget one self
Slip away into the unknown
Out of sight
Out of f*cking mind

Recklessness almost ended it all.
The world was the enemy
Frozen in fear

Death was the solution
Death was within grasp

One last kiss to end it all
One last kiss, all on black

Life became rebirth
Life became the Savior

Scrying

Scrying through a broken glass
The time has come and it has past.
The illusion go of what could have been is what hurts the most

We need to let it go-that things could have been different
Scrying through a broken glass

Left with a shattered glass heart
The ripples dance on the waters reflection
The sisters of fate put us in different directions.

Scrying through a broken glass
The hurt still lies underneath
With the stains of time etched in our palms

You are someone else
I am still right here.

I sit in silence
I'm not sure what's loudest
The silence

Or the voices
That are screaming
It's a terrible sense of dread

I lay in this bed heavy eyed
And like dust I want to rise
Erase the memories

Ashes blacken this heart
Erase the memories
I am tired of falling apart

I walked away from the sun
And walked into the gallows
Head held low
This world revolving around me goes by so slow..

Now I sit in silence of this night
Waiting for the end of this dream
Sorrow lives through this heart
I pray one day that it will depart
And like dust I want to rise

Haunted

Cold and alone
Silent like the dead
A last request
To escape

Chants get louder
Senses are drowned out.
Are we the dead?
Is this our hell?

Cast us away into the wind
He calls your name, you are denied
The Forest whispers our prayers
Cold and alone

Dawn is now arriving
Driven into the ground
6 ft below

Alone…
No words to say
No emotions
We walk alone

No haven
We spiral down
This grave is now our home.

All the roses


Light the sage

Throw the linens across the bed

Say a prayer

You look good dead


All of the roses

Thrown away

All of the roses

That reminded me of the love

I once had for you

All the roses


Arranged around the heart 

They remind me that you 

Were my favorite piece of art

Pages stained with dust and old words

Showing our adoration 


All of the roses 

Light the sage

Bless your soul

Open the window

All of the roses

I’ll remember you…