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620 · Nov 2016
I wonder (13w)
Bunhead17 Nov 2016
Do you still see me as beautiful
after what I did to you
Bunhead17 Jul 2015
all those text we sent each other
all that planning that we did
it all went to waste because
of something that I did
I let you give me your heart
I let you fall in love with me
knowing that I lied to you
I should have told you the truth when you asked me
but thing is you fell in love with me the person on the inside
not the one on the outside right
as so you say...
and if that's true
then it should be somewhat easy  
for you to give me a second chance right
I mean it might be hard for you to trust me again
but let me rebuild that trust with you please........
to arcassin burnham
615 · Mar 2017
2:07 PM
Bunhead17 Mar 2017
I'm tired....
I'm tired of going through the same thing
...the same pain
You chose **** over me
Don't you know that hurts
That feeling of feeling like
you're not good enough
Forever remains
Theres no changing that feeling
.......
I just give up
Bunhead17 Nov 2013
Everyday I am haunted
By the scars on my hips,
wrist,
stomach,
and thighs.
I hope everyday my parents won't see them.
I'm scared of what others think
I'm scared that I will be sent away again,
Away to a place that filled me with fear,
A place people call, "The Mental House,"

Yes, I did try to **** myself,
but that was long ago
But now I struggle with the razors that call my name
The yearning for the sting of a cut across my scarred skin
The desire to feel like I'm not in a dream.
Everything is so unreal
I never thought it would happen
But it did,
now I'm living with it.

I'm happy to say I am three weeks clean,
But I don't think it will last very long
Life is not easy
and I'm not that strong.
My reality, this is my life. I will open up to you. I will be vunerable for you.
© All rights reserved to Victoria C. F.
606 · Jul 2015
Fly Before You Fall
Bunhead17 Jul 2015
I see the way that you look when you hear his name
I see his picture up in your frame
And you refuse to admit you still miss him but it's okay
You're a tower of strength when you're breaking down
But through the wall I can feel your cry
And when it's quiet you're screaming inside
And I break as I hear you
Loud as a bomb
Wanting a shoulder to cry on

I hear you
Tumbling fast
Here and now, you're afraid
Don't you worry
I'll teach you to fly before you fall away

It's in the moments when you're left all on your own
And it hits you from out of nowhere
You try to hide it sometimes unsuccessfully
With a smile that fades quickly

You're resistance to sadness is futile but
You're a fighter, can't stand defeat
You're a magician at hiding the hurt from you
But I see and I hear you
Loud as a bomb
Wanting a shoulder to cry on

I hear you
Tumbling fast
Here and now, you're afraid
Don't be scared
Don't be scared

Cause I hear you
Loud as a bomb
Wanting a shoulder to cry on, I hear you

Tumbling fast
Here and now, you're afraid
Don't you worry
I'll teach you to fly before you fall
lyrics by: Cynthia Erivo,,,,dedicated to arcassin burnham
604 · Nov 2013
Quotes
Bunhead17 Nov 2013
"Go do something with your
******* life and stop hating."

"They say if you dream
about someone, that
person misses you. So
why did i have this
dream about you?
Do you miss me?"


"Keep your head high
and you middle fingers higher."


"To the youth of the world
with their dreams stolen,
just stay tryin', just try cause
your dreams are golden."


"Anger is a weak ***** emotion,
Strong ******* just chill."
Quotes by: Honey ******* #Queen **** #Icey *****  #Last Kings #Asian ***** #**** yo feelings doe #90's Gold #SCHWAG
603 · Jan 2016
Hello
Bunhead17 Jan 2016
Tomorrow (January 4)  is my birthday!!! :D
So I probably won't be on tomorrow
602 · Nov 2013
Over my dead body
Bunhead17 Nov 2013
How i'm feeling it doesn't matter, cause you know im okay, but still i ask myself why do you hurt me, you know i'm the same, i know you don't love me baby, time to take you away from me, only over my dead body.
this is the chorus part of "over my dead body" by drake :D ... this my favorite song!... (man, these kids wear crowns over here and everything is all right...)
602 · Jan 2016
Wading
Bunhead17 Jan 2016
You said that you were different
but you're the same... Stranger.
You said this was love
when you knew it wasn't.
I thought you were no good
but I'm the one thats no good.
The worst thing about it
is I knew that you'll find better.
You deserve better.
.......................
#Tolove¨ #Justwords
(@falenacon.blogspot.com)
Bunhead17 Jan 2014
We met online
but never in person
we live so far apart from each other
but yet i feel so close
you're always there for me
you never judged me for the night that I wore them skinny jeans
you just looked past all my mistakes that I made
You always give me a scripture
When I need advice
You help get closer to
Jesus Christ
... I believe he knew what he was doing when
he showed me you
601 · Nov 2017
2w
Bunhead17 Nov 2017
2w
Im hurting
601 · May 2016
Life by Arcassin and Falen
Bunhead17 May 2016
I don't wanna be here
But since i gotta be here
I'm seeking instructions of life to help me see clear
I hear angels singing
And fighting off my demons
If 'life' is what i have then tell me whats the meaning...
No books define me
Just my father to remind me...
That life is not a dream
Or the past thats behind me

*Too many saviors to choose and refuse to put my broken youth behind me,
passing through walls
and watching people see through you just to see what they could find,
I'll be, ****** and appalled by everyone's display of who I am ,
in this life I am nothing but a pawn
from a sheep or a lamb.
Hes bold. Im italic
Copyright 2016
599 · Jan 2016
Dear 2016,
Bunhead17 Jan 2016
We had a rough start last year
2015 wasn't not the smoothest year
but the past will stay in the past.
This year we will try things differently....
We will start the year off right
New year,
new adventures,
new expericences,
new style,
new me &
new boyfriends......
I'm ready for this year.
I'm moving on. Holding no grudges
It's only like 4:33 pm in San Diego, CA. But i'm so ready! :D #2016 #NewYear
592 · Dec 2015
Rester ''Stay''
Bunhead17 Dec 2015
Rester Fort.
Rester Classe.
Rester Beau.
Restez belle.
Reste toi-même.
S'il vous plaît...
rester

Je veux que vous juste pour rester
#ExcusemyFrench. <3
591 · Dec 2013
look at me...
Bunhead17 Dec 2013
Look at me...
I was made for you.
In ancient of days for you
Into your nostrils came forth life
Then I was gaved to you
I dwelled in caves with you
Held back in slave days with you.
Cried days, nights long, meant so
Much just to stay with you
Did you know I was raised with you?
I was raised by you?
Then I was turned around by some
Strengh, and I raised you too?
It was me.
I have always been right there
With you
And you are the reason why I do
Everything I do.
I remember a time when
The world wasn't amazed
By you
But yet I fore your babies
So that you could see you for you.
Yes... I was made to spend
My days with you.
So why don't you look at me?
Why don't you see me?
I have been in love with you but you
Weren't in love with me.
I came down from the sun to you,
From god. With you I sailed the sea
I've been for you and with you,
How could you not see me?
I carried babies for you
So that you could see yourself
Because that was your greatest wealth.
Its still your greatest wealth
And without me, you
Cannot recreate yourself
This is me; I am your dynasty
The way it was, the way it is,
And supposed to be
So why don't you look at me?
Why don't you know my worth and beauty?
Why doesn't your heart see me?
Why have you lost yourself?
Why don't you know your own wealth?
Why have you despised wisdom
And chose to decline your
Own self?
Why aren't you fighting for me?
I am almost absolute
Why do you believe you exist
In a world
That doesn't care
About me?
I wish you'd hear a burden
I wish you spoke the truth
I wish you understood some
Things
I wish that you was foolproof
... for I have loved you
But I do not believe you love
Me
Yet, I choose to believe in
Ourselves.
If I could just get you to see me
-look at me-
Copyright 12/5/13, all rights reserved falen acon. this goes out to all the black guys.. blacks girls are so unique but why is it that black dudes don't see that? Everyone else does.
591 · Feb 2017
Alone
Bunhead17 Feb 2017
I feel like im all alone
In a corner by myself
I got everyone telling me what i can't do
But no one is telling me what i can do
I need support
I cant be there for myself all the time
••••••••••
I hate being alone
I try to stay strong
And smile through the pain
But i just can't
I can't do it anymore by myself
I need someone to be there for me
When i need them ......
I'm always there for everyone else
Why can't someone just support me
And be there when i need them?
:( This is it. The last poem for awhile
590 · Jan 2016
Don't
Bunhead17 Jan 2016
Don't let these ******
out here sell you dreams and feed you lies.
Don't let them tell you deep things,
then only show up with paper-thin actions.
It shouldn't work like that.
Hold ****** accountable.
Don't hand out your soul, make a ***** earn your heart.
I don't care how much money they have.
At the end of the day, if you ain't offically the wife,
then none of the riches is yours anyway.
The only thing you will eventually end up owning is heartache.
I have learned this the hard way
Bunhead17 Dec 2015
I am in love with
your smile.
I am in love with
your voice.
I am in love with
your body.
I am in love with
your laugh.
I am in love with
your eyes.
*I am in love with you, Dakota
For my bae. :)
580 · Jan 2014
true love (gods love)
Bunhead17 Jan 2014
Love is patient
love is kind.
it doesnt envy
It doesnt boast
Its not proud.
it doesnt dishonor others
its not selfseeking
its not easily angered
it keeps no records of wrongs
love doesnt delight in evil but rejoices with truth
it always protects
always trusts
always hope
always preseveres
1corinthians 11:27 chpt 13 verse 4 (got this out of the bible) # happynewyears 1/1/14
577 · Jun 2016
It's me (draft)
Bunhead17 Jun 2016
I always thought it was everyone else
Who hated me
But its me...
Im the only one who hates me
574 · Dec 2015
Wonderland
Bunhead17 Dec 2015
I found myself in wonderland.*
She built up a world
of magic because
her real life was tragic.
The walls we build around us
to keep sadness out also keeps joy out...
but, think of all the joy
you'll find when you leave
the world behind.
Flowers in her hair.
Demons in her head.
Drugs in her veins.
Madness in her mind.
Love in her soul.
Storm in her heart.
.........
Come with me and i'll show you the new wonderland.
Alice left Wonderland to go to Neverland. :)
573 · Dec 2015
Used to
Bunhead17 Dec 2015
.....................

We used to talk everyday,
now it's like we don't know each other
570 · Nov 2013
Successful
Bunhead17 Nov 2013
Making your mark on the world is hard. If it was easy then everyone would do it. But it's not. It takes patience, it takes commitment, and it comes with plenty of failure along the way. The real test is not whether you avoid this failure, because you won't. It's whether you let it harden or shame you into inaction, or whether you learn it; whether you choose to persevere.  
                                                                ­                                  -Barack Obama
570 · Nov 2016
Artwork
Bunhead17 Nov 2016
To say I don't love you
Would be a lie.
I love when we cuddle
Your embrace is so warm.

Long walks on the beach,
Holding hands,
Talking under the moonlight...

I love when you look into my eyes
And say ''i love you''
I love when we have small fights
About who loves who more.

You make me see the world differently.
And when we kiss
Its like making art
................
To Be Continued
568 · Dec 2013
Coffee and Cigarettes
Bunhead17 Dec 2013
Coffee and cigarettes are my only escape.
      I got my cup of joe, my packs of stokes,
           And I'm on my way downtown, to
               Set up shop, and sing my cares away.
                     So, won't you sing with me,
'Cause its cold outside, and I'm kinda lonely.
     Friday nights are always the same in this town.
         Im looking up, but im feeling down.
                 So, ill light this cigarette and smoke the night away,
And ill hope that saturday will be the better day
    When everything feels okay.
          Coffee and cigarettes are best when shared with you.
                 Well go to the waffle house or your moms house,
and have a cup or two.
  Yeah, i got friends, but they got friends,
       And they have parties, and im so akward.
              So whatta ya say, just as friends, we go see a movie
                         This weekend, alright? Okay
I love this song. Its by: nevershoutnever.
564 · Jan 2016
Dark
Bunhead17 Jan 2016
Don't get to close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide*
............................
I'd stand in the
shadows of your heart
and tell you
i'm not afraid of the dark
#Mindpoems #SadSouls
560 · Nov 2013
Drake "the real her"
Bunhead17 Nov 2013
When your neighbors respect, Trouble neglect you,
angels protect, and heaven accepts you.
-drake(the real her)
559 · Jul 2015
Remember these
Bunhead17 Jul 2015
"Our Dream (Can't Wait)"
Running through my mind,
Running through my mind,
I wanted you beside me,
Like a marathon,
Im gonna keep it moving,
Coming to save you,
You I'm not losing,
About how fast were moving,
I put you first,
Love u no matter the cost,
But you are priceless,
Never run away from our dreams
Unless you would be loveless,
If you love me like you say you do,
Run away with me,
Having eternal dreams with you,
Bet you can't wait to see me.

falen



"Future Wife"*
Fell in love with woman,
Not for the beauty,
Or the body,
But the way she moves my heart,
Cant wait to tell everybody,
Oh look everybody knows,
I see a marriage commencing,
Will you take this ring,
Falen will you make me a happy man,
And make my heart sing,
Were gonna have the prettiest kids,
And we do,
Honeymoons will do the talking,
Baby making decisions,
In suites just night capping,
And when you kiss me,
I just like telling god,
That this is real beauty,
This may come as shock,
Future wife.

will you marry me?
to arcassin burnham...both poems are by him. please forgive me :/
559 · Oct 2014
My husbands a king
Bunhead17 Oct 2014
I miss you when ur gone too
I wish that you were here with me
We could take alittle trip to the forbidden garden
Wouldn't have it any other way,

My husband is a King
So bow down to him
Ilu Arcassin
558 · Jul 2015
The Real Her (draft)
Bunhead17 Jul 2015
The real her..............
Likes to laugh
shes very nice and understanding
she belives in second chances;
love at first sight;
Fighting for what you believe in;
equal rights for all
shes the one you can get high with;
stay up all night sitting outside talking to
The real her is fragile
Shes insecure about her beauty
If i tell you alittle secret, do you promise to keep it....
The real her is not as tough as she looks
The real her will never say it but she needs her dad

..............
I am the real her
I've  stayed in the dark for so long
that no one even noticed that I was gone
Draft. Not a poem. ♡
555 · Oct 2016
???
Bunhead17 Oct 2016
???
Can I be honest with you,
Can I tell you the truth,
Without things getting weird between us
If I told you a secret
would you keep it
545 · Sep 2016
Once
Bunhead17 Sep 2016
We were together
I forgot the rest
                 ~Walt Whitman
Love this quote
544 · Jan 2016
New Years
Bunhead17 Jan 2016
Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 366 paged book.
write a good one!*
Don't bring the past to the future.
let the past be the past and
let the future have new adventures
Its almost here!!! :D #2016
544 · Oct 2014
Fuck yo feelings
Bunhead17 Oct 2014
Why not go ahead and
Cry you a river
Then build a bridge
And get the **** over
Like **** yo feelings
Nobody gives a **** about your life story
Random **** not intended for anybody #**** yo feelings
540 · Feb 2017
Words
Bunhead17 Feb 2017
Unwanted
Unworthy
Failure
Out of place
You'll never be enough
♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
**I am enough
538 · Nov 2013
لمفاتيح. (Keys)
Bunhead17 Nov 2013
ARABIC:
المفاتيح.
المفاتيح التي لا تفتح الأبواب
هي المفاتيح التي تغلق الأبواب
والمفاتيح المشنوقة في السلاسل
لا تملك إلا دراما الرنين
لكن المفتاح الذي يموت في جيبي
يذكرني بأنه قد آن الوقت لكي أكون إمرأة عاقلة ، تسكن بيتا
بلا مفاتيح . . . . بلا أبواب


ENGLISH:
   Keys.
The keys that open doors
are the keys that close them,
and the keys strangled in chains
have nothing but the drama of tinkling.
But the key that dies in my pocket
reminds me it is time
that i became a reasonable woman
who lives in a house
without keys, without doors.
I wanted to write a poems in Arabic because i got bored...lol :D ...i translated to English too.Enjoy!
535 · Dec 2015
The Prettiest.
Bunhead17 Dec 2015
The prettiest smiles
hide the deepest secrets.
The prettiest eyes
have cried the most.
The Kindest hearts
*have felt the most pain.
#Wildflower
Bunhead17 Jan 2014
Theres way to many daddyless lil kids...
Where does stop?
526 · Jan 2016
Hubby material
Bunhead17 Jan 2016
Caring,
Reliable,
Honest,
Loyal,
Knows what he wants in a relationship,
Romantic,
Loves to travel,
Willing to try new things,
Doesn't stay in the past,
Has prioritys set,
A sense of humor,
Forgiving,
Ready for commitment
Loves me for me,
Supportive,
Knows his own self worth,
perfect in my eyes,
A job
.................
Etc.
couldn't come up with a better title.
524 · Aug 2016
Reflection (DRAFT)
Bunhead17 Aug 2016
Dreams shattered on the floor
she dances on the broken glass
trying to restore her reflection.
She looks in the mirror and sees nothing more
...but a broken girl
Collab coming soon. :)
523 · Jan 2016
Dreamer
Bunhead17 Jan 2016
Who or what is a dreamer,
sitting there diguising himself.
Describing descriptions and feelings
that he never really felt...
To unsure to understand his plans are always pure;
he wants no part in using his gift,
he wants a cure.
Nah, i'm not a psychic,
a prophet,  nor off my my rocket
just a girl that reads people like you
then builds her topic.
So it gets said just this once, I introduce
The proof, see Falen another dreamer
speaks the truth.
The poem is for a guy but I want say who. He knows who he is, so i'll let this poem tell who. If that makes sense.
@falenacon.blogspot.com
Bunhead17 Dec 2015
I see you**
---I do see you---
but I was taught not to.
I was taught that you are
my enemy, but they
taught you the same thing.
Taught us to reach for the same dream,
put hate in the middle of
kings and queens
to make sure our
princes and princess do they same thing.
---I do see you---
but i'm scared to approach you
because I want it to come easy and
I call you bitter when you deny me
without giving me a chance.
---I do see you---
But it feels like we are
so far away from each other.
Your strength intimdates
me, that's why we choose the other
And we choose her because
our history is not its own.
If we only knew you are
the most precious things
in our lives.
God didn't want me to
be alone so he made you,
took a piece of me now we are two
that's suppose to be protected,
polished, cherished, and respected.
All we think about is treasure
when we already have a jewel
and you ask why I don't love you.
---I do see you---
But I was taught not to
Check out the orginal ''Look at me'' in my collection ''The Wanderlust Project''. This was written by a close friend.
514 · Oct 2014
3005(draft)
Bunhead17 Oct 2014
No matter
What you say or do
Ill be right by yourside
Till 3005
Inspired by childish gambino song:3005....luv u arcassin
511 · Aug 2016
Beautiful
Bunhead17 Aug 2016
Oh darling,
don't you know how beautiful you are?
You're loveable, kind-hearted and smart.
You don't need to compare yourself to others
once you realize how beautiful you are on the inside,
you'll realize that you're just as beautiful on outside too.
So, you're not perfect
but who is.....
All that matters is that
you love yourself for yourself.
508 · Jan 2016
When 7w
Bunhead17 Jan 2016
When I found you,
I found myself.
505 · Oct 2014
Its all bad yall
Bunhead17 Oct 2014
Its all bad yall
This pain is all to familiar
This moment I usually consider a life lesson
I feel its less of a blessing and more of a curse
And right now id rather be layed flat in the back of a hurse
Because its all bad yall....
Thats my problem you see
I feel like the whole world is targeting me and they dont even know it
I know exactly how I feel but I dont know how to show it
This is exactly what I was afraid of...
The last time I tested what I was made of
Now im here with this gun and the pain. Is just...
Its all bad yall
Im sorry
Most of yall know me for the strenght I withhold
And the man I am through the stories ive told
And how I represent the honor of being true and bold
But in this moment im just a boy without faith a day old
And if there is a God then he's calling me back home
This barrel never felt so good next to my dome
Its cold and I rather die than live alone
Who'd ever thought I'd be saying such a thing
Though I'd rather die right now, I still hope my phone rings
Just so I can hear your voice to remind me of the things I have
The things I have worked for
The things that I've been giving
I mean I know theres a God but sometimes I feel he's hidden...
Its all bad yall...
Theres nothing left
And I hope that you remember me for the life that I've lead
And the laughs, joy and the goodness that I spread because this...
Because this is the moment where it alk falls through
God... please forgive what im about to do
I love you mom
I love you dad
But this...this moment..,.its all bad
Its all bad yall
R.I.P Keyon
505 · Nov 2013
What you Need
Bunhead17 Nov 2013
I just want to take you there
He don't gotta know where
Does he touch you here like this?
Let me take the friction from your lips
And I'mma love you girl, the way you need
Ain't no one gon' to stop us, ain't no one gonna stop us
And I'm gon' give you girl, what you fiend
I'm the drug in your veins, just fight through the pain
He's what you want, he's what you want
He's what you want, he's what you want
I'm what you need
I got everything you want with me
I do everything he does times three
And he don't gotta know
I got you on the floor, doing things you never thought you'd do
Baby, leave them high heel shoes
Cause I love it when you're looking down at me, I'm looking up at you
And I don't give a **** shorty, watch me knock your boots off
X'o
504 · Dec 2015
Chanel
Bunhead17 Dec 2015
In order to be irreplaceable,
one must be  always  be different.*
                                                       *-Coco Chanel
503 · Aug 2016
The wall
Bunhead17 Aug 2016
I'm lost...
I don't know which way to go
so, I look to the heavens above
hoping to see a sign
but I see nothing
I scream for help
but no one is near
it seems as if they have left me
but it was me who pushed them out
so blind to the fact that they were trying to help me
now, i'm all alone
and in need of their help
but no one can get to me
because i've built this wall around me.
499 · Aug 2016
Blood stained walls
Bunhead17 Aug 2016
All because I didn't say that
"I loved you too"
I now find myself standing on the ashes
of all I ever loved
memories of a broken heart
now, i'm alone in the dark
**
My mind screams
and echoes in despair
in flashes which drips
from a faucet of hate within myself
........
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