In order to be irreplaceable,
one must be  always  be different.*
                                                       *-Coco Chanel

I feel like my like my life is falling apart
.....
It feels like im losing control

Moins d'amis,
moins de conneries .
Gardez votre petite cirlce.

Less friends,
less bull--.
Keep your circle small.

Why?*
Why didn't you just tell the truth? They all gave you a chance to tell it but, you chose not to. Why? You lied to Jarod about alot of things... He asked you if you was sure, why didn't you just say no you lied. You lied to Arcassin, who you said you loved. He also asked you if you was telling the truth you said yes instead of no. Why didn't you just listen to your gut? Now you've lost him and you'll never get him back. You should have known that it wouldn't have lasted, you knew that you lied. You lied to the two people who you say were important in your life and other people too, you hurt them. *You'll have to live with that.

You always tell me that I can talk to you about anything
but how can I,
when everytime I try
you shut me down
and tell me to wait until i'm older
or you get mad & hang up the phone
because I don't say what you wanna hear.
I'm tired of your childish and selfish ways...
but yet i'm still here

****** of the innocent.............

One door opens, as another door shuts,
Drugs, knives, coppers, over dressed *****.
Colours worn, weapons in hand,
Children dying in a blood tainted land.

No more hatred, no weapons to yield,
No more coffins in a mud sodden field.
Hatred now gone, no more youngsters to die,
No need for anger at the places they lie.

When the door opens, the door opens wide,
No more denying, no places to hide.
No time for distance, no walking away,
No children dying, no murders today.........

Last thing at night
her eyes close
on her way to dream
of things that might have been.

She walks through the door
heading to the dance floor.
Feeling the music vibes
she comes alive.

Her body and legs in time
happy thoughts in her mind.
***** dancing living again
just like then.

The flashing lights
the eyes of the guys
she was the queen
of the floor
nobody could more.

Not only could she move
but she looked good too.
A models face
and the figure
legs slim
She only had eyes for him.

The music always
made her smile
she knew
that in time
come what may
they would be together
one day.

If this a fairy tale
it would have a happy end.
The truth is if she were
a bird she would be
a swan with broken wings.

No longer able to dance
only in dreams
living memories
of what might have been.

Alot of people may pretend like their perfect
they may look perfect on the outside
but if you take a look on the inside
its a nonperfection
perfect people are unhappy
they try to hide all the pain
Perfect people arent perfect
Because theres no such thing.
so if you mistake dont ****
Yourself over it
just laugh it off and move on

Forgive more
  Apolgize more
     Discover something new
         Find love & happiness
            Find out who I am
                Stop second guessing myself
                        Be nicer & Do something nice for someone
                             Stop regretting
                                    Learn french
                                         Learn how to save money
                                             Conquer my fears
                                                     Learn to drive & Get a job
                                                           Have the best sweet 16!
                                                            ­     **Stick to resolutions

The fear of not being good enough

I dance because, there's no greater
feeling in the world than moving to
a piece of music and letting the rest
of the world disappear.
They call it dance
I call it  **life

It won't be in vain
to swallow all your pain
and learn to love what burns
and gather courage to return.
Faces in the crowd,
faces in the crowd will smile again
and the devil may cry,
the devil may cry
at the end of the night.
The light will shine through the rain
and heaven will hear them call your name.

A bitter women says,
''All men are the same''...
A wise women decides
*to stop choosing all the same type of men.

Poems coming soon.
#forgivesomeone

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too [x3]

Real love
would say do what makes you happy.
Real love
would want you to be happy.
Real love
would still be there to help you get up
when you fall down.
Real love*
would tell you the truth.
Real love
would tell you that you are special,
you are worth something.
Real love
would tell you that you deserve so much better
than what you get.
Real love
would be willing to be friends with you
no matter what happens between y'all.
Real love
would hope that you find true love one day.
Real love
would stay up and talk to you all night.
Thats real love
...............

Be different.
Be weird.
Be bold.
Be beautiful.
Be humble.
Be happy.
Be daring.
Be confident.
Be yourself.

After all our time together
After all the up’s and downs
I still believe this is forever
Without a doubt

In your arms I still find comfort
In your smile I still find peace
For me there is no other
No matter what time may bring

In the memories we’ve created
There’s a magic in the past
For better or worse
I wouldn’t take one second back
The hard times made us stronger
The sweetest of times made us lovers
All that came before
And everything that follows
Made you my greatest friend

When I need a shoulder to lean on
When I need an ear to bend
It was you I could turn to
It was you who would help me
To find myself again

After all this time
I find peacefulness
Knowing, believing it’s still love,
You’re still the one,
You’ll always be the one

Not friends,
not enemies  
just stranges with some
memories

Oh, he's the one, he's the one, he's the one that I want
He's got that heat, heart I believe in,
Heart that could beat my own
And, we can be, you can be, I can be anything you want
Everybody knows it, everyone knows...

I need a moment for the moments that's needed
This is fate, I believe it, they say that death can be cheated
I live the life of a queen, put my heart out with dreams
God will protect my achievements, 'cause nothin' is what it seems
Got ambition and passion, don't act like it's a surprise
They expected my weakness, but I managed to survive
Feel determined, yet hopeless, and it's a shame that you gone
You was trouble with battles, but you an angel to one
I have conquered my struggles, I've been blamed and named
Yet I wouldn't know success if I didn't know pain
It ain't nobody's fault, they just made it a problem
How the **** they gon' progress if society got 'em?
Security and unity, thinkin' they defeated me
God made his children with his beautiful purity
I tell my spirit: don't fail me now
We've all got our battles and challenges somehow
I was destined for greatness, with the soul of a king
I don't curse none of my enemies, I let them sing
The voice of the young, and building with ******' honor
With an angel who supports me, and makes me stronger
Who knew about your issues? They were secrets you kept
Don't be worried 'bout our friendship, homie, I won't forget
Some people stay in the dark, and act like **** is all right
Yet everything seems wrong and they stray from the light
(****...)
(My bad, yo alright, let's start from here)
...lose our own fights, and we argue our fate
I will remember your face, but you at a better place
'Til then I pray, some day, I'll be with you anyway
You told me I was the greatest, so I guess I'll be okay

Oh, he's the one, he's the one, he's the one that I want
He's got that heat, heart I believe in,
Heart that could beat my own
And, we can be, you can be, I can be anything you want
Everybody knows it, everyone knows...

There's no need to yell
To get your point across.
When I came back at you,
You were at a loss.

You said I was a brat
And a selfish one too,
You know I'm not that,
You know it isn't true.

You rage with anger
Over nothing at all,
You're kind of ridiculous
To make that kind of call.

You yell and spit and point at me
To try to prove you're right,
You looked for someone to agree with you,
Sorry, there's no one in sight.

You're chidlish and imature,
Everyone knows you are.
I think it's kind of sad
That you can't go too far.

Your words are burtal and harsh,
But I certainly don't care.
Yell at me all you want,
I'll just sit and stare

I'm not a fool
I just love that your dead inside
I'm not fool*
I'm just lifeless too

Yeah
You ready?
I ain't think so

Oooh baby let's get naked
Just so we can make sweet love
All these sensations got me going crazy for you
Inside on top of you
Grinding inside and out of you
Baby I know what to do
Baby I know what to do
So come on baby girl
Let's just take our clothes off
Just so we can make sweet love

But I want to know your body
Tonight is the night
That I change your life
Let me control your body
Girl you shy you wanna slow it down
And you start screaming when I go down town
Oh baby tell me why, you're so excited
You know I love it when you take it off
So baby go ahead and take it off tonight

Oooh baby let's get naked
Just so we can make sweet love
All these sensations got me going crazy for you
Inside on top of you
Grinding inside and out of you
Baby I know what to do
Baby I know what to do
So come on baby girl
Let's just take our clothes off
Just so we can make sweet love

I'm making sweet love, to you baby
Go ahead and take it off
Let's get naked
Cause you know I love to turn you on
Girl let's do it to your favorite song, yeah
With the candles lit, and the lights low
Baby girl I want for you to roll
Just roll your hips
And just grind on me, grind on me, grind on me
And baby don't get it confused
I'll do everything you want me to
Just as long as you get crazy
And just as soon as you get naked, making love

Oooh baby let's get naked
Just so we can make sweet love
All these sensations got me going crazy for you
Inside on top of you
Grinding inside and out of you
Baby I know what to do
Baby I know what to do
So come on baby girl
Let's just take our clothes off
Just so we can make sweet love
Sweet love, sweet love

I thought you were different then the rest...
I swear I loved him,
but i'm sure that he doesn't care.
I've moved on to the next,
I thought he would have been the best...
but it was just the same old song.
I decided to see what guys
in other countries were like...
they're the same old song.
They are just some emotional teens,
i'm emotional too
thats why I keep dating them.
Maybe I should try dating someone happier then.
                               ...........

how can love escape
your grasp
without you ever letting go
....

I still have feelings for you.*
And no matter how many times
I tell myself
that i'm better off *without you,
a part of me
*just won't let go.

A BOAT, beneath a sunny sky
Lingering onward dreamily
In an evening of July--

Children three that nestle near,
Eager eye and willing ear,
Pleased a simple tale to hear--

Long has paled that sunny sky;
Echoes fade and memories die;
Autumn frosts have slain July.

Still she haunts me, phantomwise,
Alice moving under skies
Never seen by waking eyes.

Children yet, the tale to hear,
Eager eye and willing ear,
Lovingly shall nestle near.

In a Wonderland they lie,
Dreaming as the days go by,
Dreaming as the summers die;

Ever drifting down the stream--
Lingering in the golden gleam--
Life, what is it but a dream

No more lies
no more fake ****
no more hate
The old me is dead
the new me is ...
completely honest
One hundred percent real
More apologetic
more understanding
more loving
more forgiving

Thank you  to the 160 followers.
You guys are great people and poets!
Thanks for all the likes, comments, and repost
Keep them coming.
I need a least 300 followers before January 1st 2016
so help me gain please and thank you
:)

The Devil is a liar
Biased preachers shall retire
Jesus walked on water
I'm preaching to the choir Long Live A$AP
now bow down to your Messiah

When I signed my deal
I felt pressure
Don't wanna see the numbers
I wanna see heaven
You say, could you write a song for me?
I say, I'm sorry I won't do that happily

When I go home
I tend to close the door
I never wanted more
So sing with me
Can't you see

I don't have
Money on my mind
Money on my mind
I do it for
I do it for the love
[x2]

I do it for the love
I do it for the love

Please don't get me wrong
I wanna keep it moving
I know what that requires
I'm not foolish
Please, can you make this work for me?
Cause I'm not a puppet, I will work against your strings

When I go home
I tend to close the door
I never wanted more
So sing with me
Can't you see

I don't have
Money on my mind
Money on my mind
I do it for
I do it for the love
[x2]

I do it for the love
I do it for the love

When the sun will set
Don't you fret
No I have no money on my mind
No money on my mind
No money on my mind
No I have no money on my mind
[x2]

Just love

Money on my mind
Money on my mind
I do it for
I do it for the love

I don't have
Money on my mind
Money on my mind
I do it for
I do it for the love

I do it for the love
I do it for the love

Me and you aren't just friends
We more than that
So much more than that
We love each other very much
We care about each other a lot
Because we're aint just friends
We're so much more than that
I would love to marry you
And have your kids....one day :)
I would love to runaway with you
So we can live our enteral dreams
Because Arcassain this is way more
Than a friendship or a first grade crush
I don't trust a lot of people
But you I trust
And don't make me regret it
I don't give a lot guys me heart or
Let them in unless
I truly love them
So Acrassin I gave you my heart <3
So please don't break its fragile
And no matter what promise me
You'll always remain faithful to me