the tide always has to go back,
It's a force of nature.
The sun always has to set
its how the world works .
Balance
Equality
Fairness
all things we thrive off.
Things we crave
but yet as a world
We can't even achieve it,
we cant even see others for what they are
humans.
flesh and bone
all one blood.

Like a moth
you draw me in
over.
and over again,
you corrupt me
every inch of me burns
but only when i'm near you.
It's a feeling i yearn for
i thrive for
i need the pain.

Pretty isn't Pretty enough
my lipstick is smeared
concealer cant conceal this.  
My faults.
My scars
I want to hide,
to disappear
I want to be someone else,
Pretty, isn't Pretty enough.

it consumes
it takes
it crawls over every empty space
like an unwanted parasite
infecting every host available
it creeps and scatters
it surrounds you
a inescapable force
blanketing you with fear
light is nowhere to be found
there is no escape.

Empathy
feeling everything so deeply
it drowns you,
no matter how far you go
how hard you try
the waves will
always
always,
pull you under
until all you can feel is the water
swirling skilfully around you-
taking over every
single
inch
of your soul
until there's nothing left,
but empty liquid
a heart that once beat,
for everything
no longer can
not even for itself.

I yearn for a feeling
a feeling i have never even felt
it feels close,
but yet so far
like nostalgia of an old memory
or something whispered decades ago,
yet i still reach
trying to grasp it
part of me wonders
if ill feel it
Ever.

I run my fingers over my skin,
it feels like the touch of a lover.
Some distant other,
engraved into me
etched into my soul.
Burned deep into my skin
is the touch that was once there,
a touch that will.
Never leave,
Never fade,
marking me forever
like the faded kiss of another.

i am not your hope
don't see me as such
i am simply a person
an embodiment of what-
what you think you need
you don't
you don't need me
you need air and water
you need food and warmth
you will not
put that pressure on me
I can't save you.

I swore love off
years and years ago
I made that choice
my heart wouldn't be consumed by another
I wouldn't
i couldn't
do it again
my heart once tore so much
the threads run thin.
Thin as blood
pieces of me scattered apart,
but never whole.

The blade glides my skin
like paper,
like sheets at school
My old self is covered with,
permanent unbearable scars-
my youth is now ruined
when i look back i realise,
i've ruined her
the happy little girl i once was
i've damaged her
shes never going to forgive me
i'm never going to forgive myself.

to be loved is to be consumed,
you give your whole
entire
person
to another soul
you become fully captivated by them
no matter what they do
you will always remain theirs
your heart only beating for one other
you take the risk
and the reward.

One day i wont feel this
One day I'll be over it,
The burning pain,
it will stop
die out like a fire.
leaving only a patch of smoke
and a drifted memory.
One day i wont need him
One day ill be okay again
i want to feel peace again
but i wanted it with him.

religion is often frowned upon
or seen as immoral
but nobody understands
its a wall to lean on
a security that never fails
its not about real or fake
its about faith
when your left isolated
when you feel like everyone hates you
religion never will
and in some sense
that's all a person may need

white turns to red
blood covers me.
Thick Hot and Persistent
i'm drowning within
consumed by my own sins
the pool grows,
and with it my disdain is too
I can't cope,
i cant escape
It's within me.

as a child time seemed fake,
like a concept that i never understood fully
seasons came and went
as fast as the days did
time all meshed into
one
intertwined web.
that kept me stuck for years
until time stopped one day,
and my innocence faded with it
i now understood the seconds,
the hours,
the minutes,
i now understood why
why leaves wilted
why snow fell.
because we are in a cycle
everyday.
just another number
that's all i will ever be.

your field draws me in,
your south
i'm north.
I'm endlessly attracted to you
no matter how hard you repel
you draw me back
time and,
time again
i cant escape the pull
i feel submerged,