it consumes
it takes
it crawls over every empty space
like an unwanted parasite
infecting every host available
it creeps and scatters
it surrounds you
a inescapable force
blanketing you with fear
light is nowhere to be found
there is no escape.

Empathy
feeling everything so deeply
it drowns you,
no matter how far you go
how hard you try
the waves will
always
always,
pull you under
until all you can feel is the water
swirling skilfully around you-
taking over every
single
inch
of your soul
until there's nothing left,
but empty liquid
a heart that once beat,
for everything
no longer can
not even for itself.

i am not your hope
don't see me as such
i am simply a person
an embodiment of what-
what you think you need
you don't
you don't need me
you need air and water
you need food and warmth
you will not
put that pressure on me
I can't save you.

to be loved is to be consumed,
you give your whole
entire
person
to another soul
you become fully captivated by them
no matter what they do
you will always remain theirs
your heart only beating for one other
you take the risk
and the reward.

religion is often frowned upon
or seen as immoral
but nobody understands
its a wall to lean on
a security that never fails
its not about real or fake
its about faith
when your left isolated
when you feel like everyone hates you
religion never will
and in some sense
that's all a person may need

as a child time seemed fake,
like a concept that i never understood fully
seasons came and went
as fast as the days did
time all meshed into
one
intertwined web.
that kept me stuck for years
until time stopped one day,
and my innocence faded with it
i now understood the seconds,
the hours,
the minutes,
i now understood why
why leaves wilted
why snow fell.
because we are in a cycle
everyday.
just another number
that's all i will ever be.