Today I looked fear in the face,
Today I made a choice.
Not even the earthquake in my chest
Could shake my steady voice.

I spoke of what he said to me,
The fear that he imposed,
Of all the things he tried to do
Behind the door he closed.

Today I’ve laid my burden down,
Today I’ve been set free.
For when I spoke his name out loud
I broke his grip on me.

It's the cool autumn breeze that smells of earth and new beginnings.
It's that one country song that makes me feel nostalgic.
It's the ominous clouds and heavy air before a thunderstorm.
It's that moment of bittersweet emotion after reading the last word of a really good book.
It's watching the sun slant in through my bedroom window and create a mural on my wall.
It's rolling my windows down as we near the shore, and breathing in the salty air.
It's hearing my mom's contagious belly laugh.
It's that tired-happy feeling after a productive day.
It's when the Ferris wheel pauses and I'm at the very top, admiring the lighted world below.
It's the lump in my throat and tears in my eyes during a heartfelt prayer.
It's my niece wrapping her chubby little arms around my neck and putting her head on my shoulder.
It's laughing uncontrollably with my best friend at the grocery store, and not caring what people are thinking.
It's lying on the trampoline and watching the stars on a summer night.
It's the adrenaline running through my veins after a run.
It's listening to the sound of rain pounding on my window as I'm tucked under the covers.

It's the little things that impact me in the biggest way.

"I'm an open book"
She says

Written in
code.

I loved you
I hate you
I cherished you
I despise you

I believed you
I doubt you
I trusted you
I fear you

We laughed
I cry
We whispered
I shout

We bonded
I grieve
We lived the lie
I haunt the ruins

I love you
You hate me
I come near
You disappear

You beckoned
Come here
You signaled
Go away

I am confused
My ego bruised
I don’t understand
What do you want

I rescued you
You drove me away
I gave you  love
You faded from my life

When things feel
Both so very wrong
And so very right
At the same time

It becomes
A fight
Within yourself.

l.v.s

Walking in lonlinees , far away from myself

Thoughts in the head , wandering like snowflakes

They ******* be swayed , no matter the tidals waves

Millions of steps , Still more roads , Never enough time

Masks everywhere, truth nowhere , love elsewhere

shadow of death , near my doorstep

Breath , throat, stuck , silence ...