Once upon a time,
open, my pages lay.
An array of pictures and colours;
beautifully typed and evenly spaced
words on display.
Regrettably,
as the years went on,
my pages yellowed.
My ink warped and smudged.
Wonderfully formulated stories
morphed into
demented scribbles of desperation.
Affluence became affliction.
Reminiscence, rumination.
Alas tears
disfigure these pages.
Dust collected
through the ages.
Dog ears are carelessly
recurrent.
Once loved haphazardly,
now in voluntary abondment.
The glue
that binds me is
flaking, fracturing, fragmenting.
My spine is
cracking, crumbling, collapsing.
Duly I reside,
on the tip-top shelf.
Buried by self-preservation,
lies myself.
I obscure it all from another;
shrouded by a glossy, polished cover.
It is suffocatingingly lonesome in here,
oxygen is dear.
But can anybody
make familiar this language?
Will anyone
discern these dark inky contusions?
Shall someone
navigate the contents of my confusions?
These pages
tell a lifetime
of valuable lessons within.
But I give paper cuts
to precious, porcelain skin.
This piece was inspired by finding myself in pain from suppressing negative emotions. A closed book is never a happy one, no matter how smiley the cover. I wish to open up again, but it will take time.