when Uncomfortable comes,
he crawls in through my mouth
and makes a home on my tongue.
his breath stains my numb teeth
and burns the back of my throat.

when Uncomfortable asks me
to stay a little longer,
with his frail hands over mine,
there is only humming and I am
back in front of the tv, watching static.

when Uncomfortable stands
with his arms out, in the shape of a cross,
there is only smoke filling everything
as I bow my head and pray
to wake up free.

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

Another sweet goodnight
Another sweet gesture
Always so kind
Always running through my mind
Sweet talks, Longs walks
Your hand in mine
Don't want to let go for a long time
Can we, can we
just breathe
Let me take a moment
Cuz I see, I see
Just how beautiful you are
And I know, I know
This love could take us so far
This love could take us so far

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

Can't help but look in your eyes
I feel a great feeling growing
And this deep conversation
Just keeps on flowing
So comfortable with you
With you, nothing I wouldn't do
All I need, is you and I
All I want, is you at my side
All I've got, is love for you
Crushing so long, on you
I couldn't tell ya
You leave me speechless
Too shy, to even comment
On all your perfect features
So I, guess that's why
I wrote it in a letter
Ever since then
This just keeps getting better

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

I've been looking for a line
That could describe
Exactly how I feel
This still feels surreal
And I'm trying so hard
Not to make mistakes
That'll push you away
So far, so good
Taking it slow
Making the most
Of every moment
Photographic memories
And I love how you keep telling me
Corny little lines,
Every single time
Igniting butterflies
Your voice, your laugh
Only makes me adore you more
I need this in my life
All of the time
Nobody makes me smile
The way you do
Nobody else compares with you

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

I think I'm in love
Just can't get enough
I think I'm in love
Looking for a sign
In the stars above
I'm in love
Can't get enough
In love
With you, it's you
I can't get enough
Of your love

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

©2019 Written By Benji James

Crushed to the core
sinking like an Anker
To the floor
Pull me from the depths
Drowning in the wreckage
Of a wounded heart
feel the blood from a punctured lung
Tears, Screams all around
Drifting in the water below
Breathing in water through your nose
But when you rise
You rose to fill every expectation
Everybody has an expiration date
this time I’m not gonna fight
to find a way out
Cuz I’m tired of being a fighter
Yeah hold up a lighter
in loving memory
of everything we shared
They gave me more than I could bare
and now there is no flare
to light the skies
God gave me hope, gave me strength to carry on
But you can only keep going on for so long
It was in the way she talked
And in the way she walked
That the poisonous fumes
From the scent of her perfume
Stunned and trapped me in your love
Got tricked into a trap
I’ll never escape from
Take a flying leap of faith
Into the ocean and rocks below
See if I can overcome the pain
The pain of the day she walked away
Swallow all my pride
learned everything from a beating heart
that shined so brightly in the dark
Nobody likes to be alone and apart
Yeah lock my love in your mind
Know that what was mine
you've inherited all of the stars tonight
because without you they just won’t shine
That means I’ll be walking blind
so light up everything we have inside
I’ll be your angel wings in flight
I’ll take you flying through the skies
yeah baby blue eyes
I called her baby blue eyes.

©2019 Written By Benji James

As I awake from eternal slumber
I rise from the ground covered with ash
Bound in a circle of fire
You can call me Johnny Cash
Hands through the fire
They don't burn, no pain
I am immune to fire it seems
Walk right through
surrounded by lightning skies
Thunder rattles my ears
Though I don't burn
I can feel the heat
A thousand degrees
Memories flash before my eyes
Of a past life
I remember monsters and me
Locked together in purgatory

Resurrection
Need a new direction
A new chance I've been given
May have a chance to mend my ways
First I need to figure where I am
Was I resurrected by a holy man
It seems I'm not in heaven
This doesn't feel like the earth
Nothing around but Ash and Dirt
A wasteland I find myself in
Maybe this is my hell
I must have been ******
Because of the sins branded in me
Nobody around in sight
I'm on my own again this time

I've wandered these deserts for many years
No hope in sight
Not sure if in circles I have been walking
Because all the scenery I've seen
All looks the same to me
Trapped in this box
Just a Jack waiting to be set free
Wind me up so I can breathe
See the light just one more time
My mind has slowly deteriorated, insane
Not sure I'll ever be the same
This is torture, this is the pain
This burns even more than the flame
Trapped in this place
I cannot stay
I need to break free of this cell
Can't stay here trapped in hell

Resurrection
Need a new direction
A new chance I've been given
May have a chance to mend my ways
First I need to figure where I am
Was I resurrected by a holy man
It seems I'm not in heaven
This doesn't feel like the earth
Nothing around but Ash and Dirt
A wasteland I find myself in
Maybe this is my hell
I must have been ******
Because of the sins branded in me
Nobody around in sight
I'm on my own again this time

Fed myself holy water,
It burns me inside
Too late for confessing past sins
Can't be forgiven for this
Keep hearing voices taunting me
Saying I'll never be good enough
Can't save myself from the pain I've been dealt
You have failed yourself and everyone else
Them words on repeat, the laughs and the screams
Making fun of me
I'm nothing more than an empty shell
Of who I once was
Tried to be too strong on my own
Now I see it takes more to fight demons and monster alone
The mistakes that I've made
Are put on parade through my dreams
Bound and chained to never leave me

Resurrection
Need a new direction
A new chance I've been given
May have a chance to mend my ways
First I need to figure where I am
Was I resurrected by a holy man
It seems I'm not in heaven
This doesn't feel like the earth
Nothing around but Ash and Dirt
A wasteland I find myself in
Maybe this is my hell
I must have been ******
Because of the sins branded in me
Nobody around in sight
I'm on my own again this time

My soul was torn to shreds
Now just an empty vessel
Eyes pitch black
Not a light left inside
My heart was ripped from my chest
Follow your heart, Now just a distant memory
Said I wouldn't fade
Soulless and Heartless maybe I am
But I'll fight with everything I have left
Until broken in pieces upon the floor
Until I'm unable to move anymore

Resurrection
Need a new direction
A new chance I've been given
May have a chance to mend my ways
First I need to figure where I am
Was I resurrected by a holy man
It seems I'm not in heaven
This doesn't feel like the earth
Nothing around but Ash and Dirt
A wasteland I find myself in
Maybe this is my hell
I must have been ******
Because of the sins branded in me
Nobody around in sight
I'm on my own again this time

It was just monsters and me in Purgatory
Now I see I'm trapped in myself
Fighting the monsters that I had become
To my own demons, I was forced to succumb
But I won't stand for it no more
I'll do what it takes
To claim my throne
Needed a little help
Needed a little guidance
From my angels of light
Help me to reclaim my life
So I'm here praying
Drenched in tears
I need you to help me beat these fears
I need you to support me out of here
Hear my prayers and all I have to say
I need purification
Plunge me beneath these holy seas
Wash me clean, help me heal
I want the power to feel

Resurrection
Need a new direction
A new chance I've been given
May have a chance to mend my ways
Found out where it is I am
Wasn't resurrected by a holy man
It seems I'm not in heaven
But this feels like home
Nothing around but Ash and Dirt
A wasteland I once found myself in
Maybe this was hell
I may have been ******
But I found beauty in who I am
Because of the sins branded in me
They gave me the strength
to find a new way
Nobody was around in sight
There was one beyond my eyes
He filled me with eternal light
Now I've got to let it shine.

©2019 Written By Benji James

Nothing on me to light a fire
In this dark place
Only my instincts can save me
A shattered heart and torn soul
But I’m still holding on
There’s not much hope
But I hold faith
That one day I’ll make it free
From this place
I’ll do everything it takes
To get out of here alive
It’s not as easy as it sounds
The hardest things take time
And this is an endless war
Between a conscious mind
Of doubts and regrets
That fill an insomniacs head

All these monsters and me
Stuck here in purgatory
Hellhounds chase me down
For many monsters, I have slain
But there were only more that came
It’s just the monsters and me
Stuck here in purgatory
I’ve followed winding roads
Hid in dying woods
Snuck through the marsh
Covered my scents with mud
In this land, it’s always dark
Woods with leafless trees
It gets lonely here in purgatory

Can you hear the howls,
screams and cries
Deafening to the ears
It’ll make you tremble and shake
You can’t give into fear
Or you won’t make it alive out of here
I’ve been facing down monsters one at a time
Too many at once and they’ll eat you alive
It’s not easy to decide
Which one will be next
Just hope that you don’t mess up
And end up dead
I’m locked and loaded
With guns in hand
I’m prepared as I’ll ever be
I’m gonna make it out of here eventually

All these monsters and me
Stuck here in purgatory
Hellhounds chase me down
For many monsters, I have slain
But there were only more that came
It’s just the monsters and me
Stuck here in purgatory
I’ve followed winding roads
Hid in dying woods
Snuck through the marsh
Covered my scents with mud
In this land, it’s always dark
Woods with leafless trees
It gets lonely here in purgatory

The battles are from over
Still on guard, ready to defend
Every corner I turn
It gives them a new chance
To catch me off guard
And rip me apart
I’ve got a lot of scars and marks
Barely scraped through
some of my past fights
At the last moments
I was able to turn the tides
How much longer
Can I keep myself alive
I guess the future holds the secrets
Just gotta keep moving
Until I find the exit light
And break free
of this apocalyptic dream

All these monsters and me
Stuck here in purgatory
Hellhounds chase me down
For many monsters, I have slain
But there were only more that came
It’s just the monsters and me
Stuck here in purgatory
I’ve followed winding roads
Hid in dying woods
Snuck through the marsh
Covered my scents with mud
In this land, it’s always dark
Woods with leafless trees
It gets lonely here in purgatory

I’m panting
Taking a deep breath
Bite wounds in my leg
Hellhounds found me out
All is lost now
Guns are out of reach
Might as well accept my fate
Just give in
Let the monsters win
Sometimes you can’t beat a sin
Unless you devote
your unconditional love to him
This was something I never did
So where I’m going is uncertain
Now it’s finally time to
Let the curtain close
Shut my eyes
This is it
I’m torn to bits

All these monsters and me
Stuck here in purgatory
Hellhounds chased me down
For many monsters, I have slain
But there were only more that came
It’s just the monsters and me
Stuck here in purgatory
I’ve followed winding roads
Hid in dying woods
Snuck through the marsh
Covered my scents with mud
In this land, it’s always dark
Woods with leafless trees
I died alone here in purgatory


(To be continued...)
©2019 Written By Benji James

Remember when life was perfect?
Nah life has never been perfect
Yeah but at least I'm making it worth it
So stop taking everything so seriously
I find it hard to believe
That everything should be done so irrationally
I've been unintentionally
Influencing the wrong kind of idea's
But maybe lately I've been thinking about changing
My philosophy and possibly
I think that this could be it
The reason for life is to live
Not to stand or just sit
Don't worry about the future
Your in the here and now
Do something every moment
That will make yourself proud
Lets start living life out loud
Come on just shout it out
Standing tall, Standing proud
Never backing down
Never drowning in the crowd
Standing out
Each individually crowned
The Kings and Queens
Of our own scenes
That’s just the way our story reads
It’s what I choose to believe.

Hello, fellow Hello poetry poets.
I hope that you all had wonderful New Year celebrations,
and I just want to say Happy New Year to each and every one of you that decide to read this.
Hellopoetry has been a big part of my life through 2018 I didn't expect too much when I came here I was actually introduced to this site or platform through a friend of mine.
He told me about it so that I could put my lyrics out there and share them with people who would appreciate the works that I had created just as much as I do. And I will be forever grateful for that advise.
Because when I came here I found people with a pure passion for the art of poetry and writing.
Now on to you my fellow poets, I just want to say a huge thank you to anybody who took time out of there lives to comment, like, etc on any of my material, I do not take what anybody has to say for granted.
2018 has been a big year of growth for me
I've learned to fight for my beliefs
Push boundaries as far as I possibly can
And I have so much more room to grow and so much more boundaries to push through this new year in 2019
Seriously Hellopoetry, You guys have all been great and supportive
An extra special thanks to Sue, for your kind messages and support
And you also inspired me to write probably one of my favourite pieces I have ever written called "Challenge Accepted"
And a big highlight for me was also getting The daily.
That really was an honour.
Once again a big thank you to everyone
I'm looking forward to more mind-blowing pieces of art created by this community, may you all have a prosperous year full of growth, kindness and love and I look forward to sharing more lyrics/poetry or whatever this brain tends to conjure and share within the near future

Peace Out
Much Love
Benji.