When I'm alone my soul fades away
It slides right out and fades to the grey
That I carve into the paper where my thoughts take form
Where I go to see straight
Where I go let my mind storm
Where I go to think true
That's where I go when I'm alone with you

When I think of you my thoughts melt away
They all come together and shout out and say
She's the one I care about
She's the one I dream about
She's the one who keeps me steady
She's the one who's always ready to listen to me and help me move
She the reason I make it through
That's why I think I can say
I love you

Things to know
Things to see
Going wherever
Trying to be
The person laid before me
Isn't the one I want to be
It's forced upon me to be this man
To believe I'll comply and won't make a stand
To stay where i am and not deviate
From the path
But I will retaliate
I won't stand silent
I won't stand still
I be who I set out to be
Not who I was cut from to be
I'll go where I want
I'll be what I see
Because all I see
Is me

People blame me for who I am
and what I do
They make me turn and apologize  
But who do I do?
Nobody apologized to me
for making me this way
Who do I blame...?

Know what i noticed?
In this world there are too many songs about finding love
and even more poems about losing it
(I'm one of the drones whos contributed to both)
there are not enough happy people  
and also too many depressing people
(and I'm no spring flower)
too many
there are too many selfish tyrants
and not enough selfless saints
(i wish i was the right one)
there are too many judgemental basturds
and not enough accepting freaks
(i have yet to cast the beam out of my own eye)
there are too many people outraged at something
and not enough willing to go out and do anything
(im too lazy)
but with all this propoganda for both sides
youd think we would have found a winner
and stop the stupid people fighting for the wrong cause
now tell me
which one is right?
and truthfully,
which one are you?

During the time I let my mind wander
Off the leash and down on yonder
Sitting here contemplating life
Where I will go
What I will do,
When will I grow up and not be the fool
When will I learn what I want from myself
Will I be a doctor and care for ones health
Will I be a fireman and drive around town
Fighting the fires that destroy and burn down
Will I be the teacher that everyone loves
The one that pleases and eases the kids through
their time at the building of perdition where they do their crimes
Will I be an astronaut and reach for the stars
shot past the moon and land on mars
Would I go and be the first of my kind
to make friends with an alien mind

Would I be the first to travel to the centre of the earth
or would I stay home with my wife and give birth
to a child
and be able to make their world a better place.
Could they be special and be the first of our race
to do something special
To do something great
To watch them grow up and let that light shine
To be proud of who they are and know that they will
Always be mine
My child my legacy

To go and do what I could not
To have a chance and take their shot
To make a difference and make me proud
To make me happy, to die in peace
To drift away with ease
So when I'm laying down for the final time
I can say boldly "you will always be mine"
Mine to hold
Mine to cuddle
Mine to love
Mine to huddle
Mine to teach
Mine to learn from
Mine to tell and say to go on and live your life your way
Learn from your mistakes and don't give yourself
reason to sit at those lakes in your mind
Full of regret and times where
you wish you had done it different
Said something else
Made a different move
You must live on
You will be great
You will be remembered
You will make a change
You have the potential to change the world

But don't forget the ones you hold
Most dear to your heart
because they're the ones that will stay by your side
Right through your darkest times
They will follow you through
Your blackest hours
and carry you through your hardest times
They will be your lifeline, your life
Even when your drowning in sorrow or feeling alone
They will be right there when you get home
to bring you up and pick you out of your rut
They will make your life worth living
They will offer all they can and keep on giving

So long as you keep on living
A righteous life helping others and showing them light
In their darkest hour and blackest times
Because your words have power
a power to change
a power to wound
a power to heal
a power to be kind
a power to brush away the scars of verbal
blades dragged deep through the recesses of our
minds.
Your words have power
so use them well
Because most times it is hard to tell
How much someone needs them to help them through
Because most times the only one who can
help them through
help them move
Is you

Maracas in the setting sun
Cheche Cheche Cheche
Those special few basking,
standing and relaxing in the starlit rainbow rays
Cheche Cheche Cheche
We party and glee till the daylight dies and opened the night sky's eye
Cheche Cheche Cheche
The sun says as it bleeds across the hot silver sky
Cheche Cheche Cheche
The maroon navy water echoes as it laps up our prints as if we were never here
Cheche Cheche Cheche
As the moon and we reply
We're gonna sing the sky awake as the stars shine their ghosts down to us
Cheche Cheche Cheche
We hear they come and gently lead us back to our place amongst the stars
Cheche Cheche Cheche
Echoes across the empty wake as we fly home the Angels of the night

Who says that we can't party all night?
and make memories we'll never forget
Who says I can't skip class for you my love?
and make your day with my smile and a strong gentle hug
Who says we can't have those late nights?
where we put off homework and stargaze on a hill just us two
Who says I can't take a day off work to pick her up?
when she is crying to her pillow
Who says I can't fall into her arms?
when I have no place left to fall
Who says I can't be careful of what I do and say?
because I don't want to ever want to cause her pain
Who says I can't take some time from life?
to write her little love notes and poems and hide them for her to find
Who says I can't say "I love you" to her in public?
because its a "too personal" thing for strangers
Who says I can't take those little moments lost in her kiss?
to mouth I love you Right onto her lips
Who says I can't brush the hair out of her eyes?
and brush a tear away and comfort her as she cries
Who says I can't love her with all my heart?
And call her as mine until death do us part
Who says I can't?
Who says?
Who, and why?

You know what I hate?
Backstabbers and Liars and users all threee
They take you, and play you, and **** you,
A spree,
I've had my fair share and here I've had another,
Come, take me now, as I have nothing left to lose,
But beware to all those freaks out there
Who do this and find it amusing
The next time I jumprope
It'll be your intestines I'm using...

Ive tried to soar free as a bird,
Free of my cares,
(these scars)
My emotional wares,
Yet I've failed each time
Its not my fault though
You have to believe me its not
Im not the one to drag me down with these acidic anxieties
that fill me up and burn me out,
Your the one that makes me this way
hollowed out and broken,
Whats left to say?
Is that im here and I'm used
broken and thrown away,
"you must pay"
they said each time
as if for a crime I've (never) committed
a wrong that I have (never) done
Call me a liar,
but I think their wrong
I think they're out to get me
I think that I'm their chew toy
the one no matter how bruised and broken
seems as though it can go another round
In this maelstrom of hate bitterness and plagueful actions
I know I'm crazy for saying this but,
I know its not my fault its not.
right?

My love, my sweet
My only, my complete
Those hours wasted away
Lost on your thought
Drowned in your kiss
Those lost hours
Never will I miss

This is where I go to think,
The isle of banished dreams,
A place long forgotten,
But bursting at the seams,
I come here to think,
I come here to wade,
In the waters of regret,
In here I feel at peace
But no not just yet...
I come here to banish all those pointless goals,
To let go of al those broken dreams,
This place is always locked from me,
But sadness is the key
This place,
This place, is always open unto me...

This place, I come to lose myself in fears,
In anxieties, in dilemmas, all those wasted years,
I come to think, and let my tears build the sea,
This place,
This place, is the true definition of me...

I come here to wonder,
To sit in the sand,
To wonder if I'll ever leave again,
I stare up at the clear night sky,
I wonder and ask "Father can I leave?"
Can I leave this place of sorrow,
where my tears build the sea?
Can I leave this place of tragedy,
where my doubts grew the trees?
Can I leave this place where my questions
and dreams are the sand
and litter this beach?  
Father can I come home?...

I sit here in the dawn of night,
Sitting, questioning, is it ever worth the fight?
I sit here and ponder,
and let the ghosts of my broken dreams
come to my aid,
I feel fractured, hollow, unmade,
I let the voices swirl around me and scream
in my face,
"YOU COULD HAVE DONE BETTER!!"
They bellow and shriek,
I hear all of them,
I take in their council,
I understand their speak,
They speak of my wrongs,
They speak of my failures
I've given them reason,
I'm the reason they're here...

I come here to wallow in my pain,
To wash off all hope,
To be clean once again,
I come here to question to ponder to search,
To want to be better so I walk and I think,
Think along the waters edge,
Along this beach of broken dreams and
fears,
I hope I don't sink,
I want to be better,
I want to be great,
These dreams, these morals, they have yet
to break
I cling to them dearly,
As I tear out my heart, and feed it to the sea,
I want it to drown there,
But it always returns,
It always comes back,
My heart is half the reason I'm here,
It takes you by the hand,
and whispers in your ear,
And you follow it without fail,
Through storm, through fire, with no hope of
prevail,  
I follow it too,
I follow it in and out of this place every time,
She controls it, "Your heart is mine",
She knows it very well,
It's the reason I'm here, this place
This hell...

I walk deeper, and deeper into this place,
To  find where I've hid it,
I must find that place,
It's new every time, but yet, somehow the same,
This thing holds my future, it is my fate,
When I find it I can leave this place,
I can't find it here, not here, nor there,
It's inside me and I must find it but where,
where WHERE?!
It's not a key, but it is of sorts,
It's more of a conclusion, an answer, to why
I'm here,
I feel it close,
Im almost here...

I'm almost here, it's very close, it's very near,
I've thought, and thought, for what feels like years,
I want to come back stronger than before,
I've done it before, and I'll do it once more
These voices I've unleashed that storm inside my head
and help me think,
They help me, they've shown me the way ,
The way back up,
From down here below,
Im leaving now to return soon,
But for now I'm gone,
Until the next blue moon...

Lies swirl around
they whisper in your mouth
and make play from your tongue
they slide in and out of your mouth
a snake with venom potent as tears
as healing as acid
it trickles down your throat,
Burning others from the inside out

Never let anyone in because the less you
trust the less you'll pay,
You can never truly have what the heart craves,
It will only bring fleeting supplements
Then unbearable pain

Walking down the shores on nigh,
Hand in hand,
Side by side,
The waves that quietly lull the sea,
I walk with you and you with me...

We walk in silence with the song of the
sun,
Sets as we sing to the sand almost done,
And let our cares wash away on the
tide...

One last time we lay down here,
Again so far and yet finally this near,
I stroke your cheek as a tear falls free,
And kiss your lips as the stranger I be...

One last time i hold your gaze,
I drown in your eyes as I slide away,
Into the wake so far so fast,
One last time one last...