To understand my feelings,
You gotta look further.
Or at least ask me how i feel,
That's a good start for sure.

And still, i might just tell you,
I feel okay, i am good,
But if you ask me to give an answer,
To explain you every mood,
With honesty in all my words,
I wouldn't hold back,
I would talk.

Behind my smiling face,
I would show you the crying eyes of pain,
The huge missing part of my heart,
The absence of your space.

And i know you didn't mean it,
But you broke something in me.
Something only you could fix,
By sitting next to the crying me.

The suffer inside is growing higher,
By each day of missing you.
Thoughts of love i can't give out,
Bleeding heartaches,
All the time.

It's hard to write down what i'm thinking,
My brain doesn't work after drinking,
So i use my heart to explain,
The unbreakable love that i feel.

If the brightest shooting star,
Appeared in the dark, blue sky,
I wouldn't waste a single second,
And ask god to make this happen:

To make you appear in my dreams,
Every night for a thousand years.
And i would survive all those days,
Just to see your perfect face.

I fear, that once i'll forget your scent.
But no, i can't,
It's in my heart, and in my head,
Lining up next to the million reason,
Why i can't let a girl like you,
Out of my life, just simply go.

I don't like tattoos, never did,
But to carve your name, into my skin,
I would do it with a smile,
Use the sword of a loyal knight,
With glowing ink, so **** bright,
It would lead you to me in the afterlife.

My final wish, the biggest one,
Is to bring you back into my arms,
And make your cruel pain stop,
You deserve this kind of love.

The coldest night of autumn,
Made its place on a sunday.
I'm keeping up with my thoughts,
The ones about you, my dear.

My mind is playing tricks with me,
I see you in every dream,
Tears shed, too much, made a lake
Swimming in my own, deep pain.

I listen to your whisper,
It travels with the wind.
Leaving behind paths and hills,
Our promises, everything.

You went past winter, left a note,
I opened it with such big hopes...
The message had a dark, short line:
"You were never in my life".

I hear your knocks from years away,
On the door of Spring's huge cave,
I have to warn him, or is it too late?
How dare you act, like you're a saint?

So tell me darling, use your head!
Don't tell me this is the end!
How is March a better man,
Than November, who's more than friend?

I need an answer, a confess,
How can you move on so fast,
Leaving me on special meds,
With all these new panic attacks?

The boy i was, became a man,
Lost his faith and future plans,
Like those cute dates, all of them,
We used to say: "Carpe diem".

Time to close my heart forever,
Hurts me more than any hell.
Wishing you are loved and better,
While i live under your spell.

You told me, that you're my Lover,
I trusted you, for too long,
Liar.