I followed you down, deep down into the ocean deep
My breathing slowed while these tears filled the sea
The ego I hid escaped, grew, and my dreams fell back asleep
I writhed against the flow, but the flow wouldn't let go of me

Resistance to what I feel for real was the only thing bringing me down
But letting the darkness reveal itself lifted my dreams off the ground
I felt vulnerable then, terrified, but I stopped and let it out
A light began to shine as I realized what these struggles were about

Healing is a process, complete with steps of it's own
You cannot rush it, control it or demand it be gone
Crying is the way the heart can bleed out
The poison within it that I have learned to call doubt

Encapsulate my soul in your whispered secrets
Revitalize the light within my greatest weakness
I come to you when my heart unleashes
Every distant memory in it's own uniqueness

Quench my thirst for balance and solace
As you hold me in your arms, I value your focus
On loving me no matter how long these moments
Last as I cry out to the cosmos...
"I am not hopeless!"

He tells me the truth I knew in my heart
Reminds me of the times I was lost in my art
Now I realize the chaos was my way to restart
The beautiful tapestry, touching every last part
Of the Goddess within this orbiting star chart

I am the wanderer, happy to be forever lost
I am the conqueror of all I had once forgot
To live by my side really is not
All you thought it would be, but you sought
Me in your web of true love so I stay
Away from the pain of each last yesterday
I allow you to come to me in any way
Consume all the love I had hidden away
From anyone, including myself, and in vain

But now it is time to awaken, to shine through
All of these memories, and find my balance with you
I am ready, I am waiting, I am hoping, I am savoring
Each precious moment, ones I know will continue
I am eager, I am tasting, I am a universe always radiating
One love that will always be hopefully
Endlessly
Unwavering

Whatever mystery we soar on through
I will always believe in this one truth
That no matter what state I fall back into
I will always make my way back to you

Terrified, I had allowed my love for you to come loose
Now I let this fog lift, revealing one bruise, two
Showing a path leading to the mountains I ran through
Deep canyons littered my skin, not unlike the scars I drew
In fear of encountering my reflection, so worn down into
Something unrecognizable, I was barely able to choose
Anything new, or a personality to use
But now I see that within that false review
I had forgotten no matter how far I chose to withdrew
Nothing could tear what is originally whole into two

We watched from a distance how our love grew
From the pain of a thousand cuts and emotional abuse
From two separate points of view
Feeling dissonantly, inexplicably used

And now, somehow, even in darkness you knew
That if I controlled the way I travelled reality
It would keep me from finding truth
So finally, I said will you still take me
Watch as I let this lie shatter in totality
A thousand precious pieces, I watched you undo
Everything I thought I was, unravelled so violently
I thought my mind I would forever lose
But instead I was revived by a single memory
A young child's first kiss,
Sweet and innocently true
A clue that undeniably, always and infinitely
Would bring me back to you

I am no longer afraid of my own skin
I'll watch you uncover a soul that had been
Slowly unleashing these butterfly limbs
Singing emotions like a hundred sweet violins
Serenading every single invisible hint
Of the ascended master that was growing within
All this time I was more than your eyes could take
Layers upon layers of old energies, they'll fade
Let it change, arrange, let it rage for its own sake
Now I'd trade anything to witness the form that you'll take
As Gaia rises to higher and higher physical planes
Yes, I'll trade this egoic state for an emotional taste
Of the spirit that shifts into this form as of late
Beautiful, magical, powerful human beings make
For the home that will house all that we will create
You will discover and never a moment too late
The ancient illusion will break
A new reality has taken shape

Atmospheric chaos erupts like wild volcanoes
This bottled creativity sparked a supernatural
Storm that has echoed just like ten tornados
That leave behind a silent, colorless wake
A spiritual crystal rainbow
Of deep plateaus breaking down missing traits
Dipping gently towards the lines of my dreams
Causing me to believe in many truths unseen
So I am left with one mysterious theme
To express the need
To be all that is found inbetween
Reality, fantasy and the enticing extremes
Within the confines of wires that were weaved
In such a way that I was swayed to believe
These schemes could ever reflect back to me
That I am and was made unnaturally
To be something otherworldy
Despite these
Mysterious glass trees that deliriously reflect back to me
Disqualified memories buried so subconciously deep
Now I believe in the dream
So I let it all go
Have faith I can hold
Tightly to the fluttering lace that my own
Wispy fingers have sewn
Into this skin that is dry like the wind
My consciousness now wearing thin
So don't let it go
Let it unravel to show
I will soon be sweetened with rain
Soon you will know
This storm will not be defined or decayed
Dismayed or maintained
Let the truth come, invade
False pain that will stay
Unless I make
One night of healing, so well handmade
It will replace the decades of feeling afraid
Of being awake
Of going astray