I thought this was love,
but It feels more like a game
of tug of war between heart strings.

"Are you afraid?"

Yes I am afraid.
I'm afraid of so much
like the endings to books,
actually loving someone,
having to tell my mother
what I am.

I'm afraid that my family
will hate me,
that my friends already
do.
That everyone who sees me
labels me as
Miss Confused.

I'm afraid of death and life
and everything in between the
two.
Maybe I'm afraid of myself
but I don't truly have
a clue.

I know I'm afraid of who I will
love one day.
What if they hate me now
or what if they think I'm weird?
What if it's the person I broke up
because I didn't love them
anymore.

I'm afraid of a lot of things
and everyone knows it.
Because a world without
fear.
Is like a world without
law.
It's unruly and unjust.
And you do stupid
things that can
get everyone
killed.

So I'm afraid of the alternative,
the thing I fear most
in this world.

If I could paint a picture with my words
A pallet of stars..rainbow of verbs
Illuminate the heavens for all to see
Bring everlasting peace to humanity
Alas I know it's just a dream
A *** has to boil to build up steam
There is no clock..Endless is time
A measurement of moments in our mind
Delusion's illusion..do you trust what you see?
Some were born to question society's vanity
Systems lay broken..Politicians stroking
Humanity choking while solutions lay open
Complicate the simple take us off our path
Study patterns of History do the math
Yesterday's tomorrow is same as today
All a memory in the word of play
I feel the wrong..I feel the right
Living in the middle gives me sight
Beauty within tames the nature of the beast
Pretty words provide hope till we find our peace...