Love fades
g  r  a  d   u   a    l     l    y,
so does the pain eventually,

may
        be
            by
                 the
                       time
                               we
                                     die.....

It didn't take her long to realize and start afresh
that he only professes love having his hands on her flesh,
How skillfully he practiced this mind body disconnect?
How secretly he kept his heart remain unaffected.
It was then she decided to let him go,
For her, love was an utmost amalgamation of both mind and body.

God. How am I still not okay?

God. It's been so long.

God. I'm so tired of life right now.

God. What happened to me?

I was such a nice kid.
I was calm all the time.
Mature for my age,
Little but so lively.

I was so helpful.
So loyal.
I always supported my trust.
But I never really spoke my mind.

I was shy.
I was small.
I never stood up for my feelings
I never stood up for myself.

And now I'm older.
I realize I don't need support.
I need myself.
I need confidence.

Speaking your mind is not wrong.
Standing up for your feelings isn't rude.
Standing up for yourself isn't mean.
Saying what you feel doesn't make you imperfect.

No one's perfect. Not even them.
The ones you hate for being so amazing.
Maybe she has anxiety.
Maybe his mom is alcoholic.

No one has a perfect life.
There's not one perfect family in the world.
There is not a person in the world who's perfect.
There's not a person who doesn't have one bit of strife.

But just because you aren't perfect.
Doesn't make you less worth it.
You're amazing.
You're still charming, kind, and strong.

You're just more experienced.
You just understand some more things now.

And maybe, just maybe,
You just aren't as shy anymore.

A soul who once endured the tears
Has learn to shine, conquered her fears

A heart that once carried much pain
Has painted smiles upon her face
For in her past she recognized
Not just bitterness there once reside
But also memories like treasuRe gold
And life lessons, a key it holds
A road that lead to joys untold
Indeed a pRize that’s been foretold.

What lies ahead is yet unknown,
What’s meant will unfold upon its own
A character I should build on
That I will be worthy of what I longed
Desire and action should come along
Stand firm and stay head strong
Once a dream soon will be a home
My journey will take me where I should belong.

Whatever  in prayer I ask sincere
With faith and patience I should bear
Not to limit myself with fear
Not be misguided with selfish cares
To seek the answer I should not stray
That I do things, just as I prayed.

The goal I aimed lies just ahead
A breathe of determination away from reach
So I command my inner self
To heed my calling and give it best
For it is the time that I should reap
The essence of my existence I now shall live!