You’re old and dying,
And you’re tired.
You can’t keep your eyes open,
Long enough to see time pass.
Oh you’re so behind, you’re stuck in the past.
You’re one last breath from death,
But you won’t give up.
You whispered you ain’t giving up for God.
You old twisted soul,
You always find a way to make them pay.
And by them I mean the ones who loved you now and till death.
It be gift if you just went.

I’d hate to think of me as an afterthought.
A one shot glimpse of the past, like a flash of memory bursting into your mind when you see something familiar.
Maybe it reminds you of a certain time or place.
Just a second we might have shared.
But then it’s gone and I’m out of your mind again.
Not even a second thought.

I’d hate to be one of those people who can’t let things go.
That linger in the past .
That dwell on what if's.
Reminiscing about better times and youth; lost in drunken rambles to the wall.

I wish I was one of those men in one of those  movies.
Always knowing what to say and what to do.
Maybe I would have known  what to do then.
Maybe I would know what to do now.

I don’t want one of those happy ending.
I just want to be decently happy.
Is that so much to ask?
For decent happiness?

He had gold  watch
And wedding ring
From a marriage that was over
A few kids
And a life to live

He went to sleep
And never woke up again
And he left behind everything

Just some memories
And a face that gets blurry at times
Photographs and sentimental things
I am always thinking of him

Hey bartender pour another shot
And take me away from here
I could use a little immunity from fear
Some courage to remember
Some will to forgive
It is what it is.

you’re not even there
Looking at you past the mirror
What’s all this have to do with me?
it couldn’t be any clearer
Melt away that skin
Show what’s hidden underneath
What does it mean?
What can you even say to defend it?
You shrinking
it almost  pathetic
I’ve been thinking
Over this again and again
Your hands are in my head
Twisting my thoughts
I just wanna be happy
I just want to be free
I just Want to be free
I just want to be me
Free from this parasite

The lights start to flicker,
As the breaks begin to screetch.
But nobody bothers,
looking up from their feet.

The rush hour crowd,
Screams to be noticed.
But no one pays any mind,
They're to busy to notice.

Tired faces and crowded minds.
All different in different ways.
But when the subway doors slam shut,
We're all the same.

A passenger on a train.

All spun out
Laying in a field
Playing 90s music on a Fm radio
Staring up at the shapeless clouds
Punching at thoughts I don’t want to think
Nauseous at the thought of 33
Pity party central
Calling all those lost
Join me to bask in horror
Always growing old
Never getting any younger

Haven’t seen sunlight since long ago.
Shadows rule here,
In this kingdom of dark.
This place hasn’t been fun,
Since 1999.

I don’t see anyone laughing,
I don’t see children playing.
Their all stuck in their phones,
They’re all pretending.

It takes a war to make them look up.
But just for a moment, to say what for?
And their gone again,
Till the next missile launches.

They’re playing with fire,
And they’re gunna get burnt.
Let it all burn down,
Let it take this small town.

And their off again,
On a new quest to save someone.
But they don’t save a soul,
They just convince themselves.

And it goes on and on,
From dusk till dawn.
And it’s old and tired,
But they think they’re still young.

And let them never speak of this place again.
Let it all end,
And let them never speak of this place anymore.
Let’s forget about it,
This whole **** world.

Saw another school shooting on the news,
Why does it seem normal?
Why don’t I seem burdened?
How sick are we all?

I’d rather be dreaming,
I’d rather be blinded.
I don’t have the heart for the truth,
It’s all so grim.

I’d rather ignore it.
It’s so sad to take in.
I’d rather pretend.
It’s all a dream.

They’re playing with fire,
And they’re gunna get burnt.
Let it all burn down,
We’ll pray when it’s done.

I don’t even know how to do this anymore
Write for someone I don’t even know
To make them feel something
I don’t  know
Am I just in a mood?
These words seem so weak
I’m a poet but did I ever know it?
I can’t seem to put my finder to it
I’m a mess
Does that even come close to knowing
What’s it’s all been for?
I keep writing about loss
But what did I lose?
I’m still alive
And that something
I know it is
It’s short and simple
I’m here and I
Have one more line in me
I'm a poet and I think I always knew it

She said,
I’ll stop smoking when I’m dead.
I fear all that beauty
went to her head.

She grew up in a small town
In Massachusetts
Always dreamed of the city
And how she would live there.

Those tall buildings
Lights so pretty
They danced above us
You were always good
At making your dreams come true

You said over a cigarette
You know your running away
But you don't know what else to do
I don’t want to keep
Standing here still with you.

If Gods so good
Why is he so good
At ripping your heart
Right out of you?

I started speaking
To my father
He’s been gone too long now
Looking for answers.

Those tall buildings
Lights so pretty
I could taste the liquor on you
You were always good
At making your dreams come true

I took the 161 to the city
The lights they look so pretty
I just wandered around
It ain’t the same without you around

The tide is getting high on the east coast
I feel like I’m drowning
I started drinking more
Somethings can’t be ignored

I heard your living out In Brooklyn
I’m still living here in town
They tore down the old mall
It’s like it was never there

I’d **** to smoke some cigarette
And drink some Jack and cokes
Guess I’ll have to do it by myself
Your to busy dancing under the lights
With someone else

Those tall buildings
Lights so pretty
They danced above us
You were always good
At making your dreams come true

These cages are over flown
This rage has no home
It’s just dragged from place to place
And you can see it on each face

They don’t know where they belong
But they go on and on
And they don’t complain at all
And it all just seems so out of control

You gotta find some stability
Im grasping at air
Im pulling out my hair
No escape from what we know

So far it a horror show
We are scared by what we know
There is no calm here anymore
Say goodbye to what you know

If you once believed in love
Just throw that away and push it down
I don’t know why you blame yourself
You were born into this hell

I welcome you to figure it out
We’ve tried and look where we ended up
Just push it down and let it go
Don’t let them tell you what you know

Just push it down and let it go
They can’t tell you who you are
Just push it down and let it go
You aren’t in Kansas anymore

Do not do it,
Do not let yourself slip.
Under current flows,
Let it be your peace.
Your religious mind,
Has you weak.
Cast your spell,
And try to miss it.
Your soul is bound,
To this unproven lie.
Don’t throw stones,
In this glass house
Just whisper softly,
Don’t bring this house to the ground.
Don’t shatter everything,
Let it be, let it go.
Don’t be the star,
In this reality show.
I’ve seen this ending,
I know the way that it goes.

In a basement apartment
You fester with your demons
Till they tear right through
Been angry for to long
Nothing makes sense anymore
Wide eye expression when you turn on the lights
You keep it dark to hide from the light
Her memory creeps into your mind like poison in the night
It happens every time
Stretching through your veins likes vines
What is the remedy
To heal the enemy
That’s living within you
You’ve seen better days
You weren’t always this way
Is there a cure?
A friend had mentioned religion
Said you should prey to God
But you don’t believe
And you probably never did
Your not the type to be saved
Your mother tried when you were young
To give you faith
But it didn’t stick
It only made you sick
Pushed you in the direction of foul things
What is the remedy
To heal the enemy
That’s living within you
You’ve seen better days
how you’d wish to be
Back there
Back anywhere but here

Met you at the airport, caught the last flight to anywhere.
Caught your smile, made everything feel alright.

I don’t have reason to care about anything.
We don’t need a reason to care about anything.
We just need right now.

Miles away from home.
Together we still feel alone.
But I can always be ok when your by my side.

This life has so many twist and turns, we learn from those that left us burned.
This world is so crazy.

I don’t have reason to care about anything.
We don’t need a reason to care about anything.
We just need right now

When it hit your blood you were lost,
Taken from the ones you loved.
Just a taste it took,
To make you a monster.

Your tongue stuck to the roof of your mouth.
You stuttered the words,
I love you so much.
Did you mean it?

He watched as your eyes rolled to the back of your head.
And you said,
This means you love me so much.

And you saw the future,
And you felt like a god.
But you never came back,
You just went to sleep.

Chasing a dragon,
That never looked back.
You had it all,
And you gave it all back.

So let it all be true,
What they say about you.
You were the hero,
And the villain of this story.

I’ll miss you forever,
I’ll think about you forever.
And I’ll tell your story till I die,
If it saves one life.

I wrote you a letter but never sent it.
I still have the envelope.
I'm burdened by older days
Can't seem to push these thoughts away.

A dark room in a local bar.
We shared secrets we went to far.
I wrote it all down so I wouldnt forget.
Put it in a letter but didn't send it.

Why can't we ever say what we mean.
This life's to short to be discreet.
Why can't we ever say what we mean?
Sometimes this life feels like a dream.

I bought the stamp and everything.
I wrote the address so easily.
But when the time came
I couldnt do the deed.

And when I'm lost in thought it's always with you.
We promised things we couldn't make true.
What's wrong with us?

Why can't we ever say what we mean.
This life's to short to be discreet.
Why can't we ever say what we mean?
Sometimes this life feels like a dream.

Smoking my last cigarette
In the cold New Jersey wind.
I feel young again,
But I’m older than I think.
There’s alone
And then there’s all by yourself.
Leave those feelings,
Up on the shelf.
Take shot to feel warm,
Your heart was born to feel pain.
These ghost that haunt these halls,
They carry such a burden on them.
Kiss the love of your life,
And watch her leave.
She was never yours,
She sank her teeth.
Into your yellow skin,
You’re such a fool to believe,
This girl is filled with sin.

It was a slow dance in the dark
That would lead to a broken heart
Though at the moment it was real and pure.

A castle we both built from love
A high you’ve never felt before
And as it crumbled we watched from a far.

We were so alive
We thought we knew it all
But what did we know?
We’re did we go wrong?

It was a slow dance in the dark
That would lead to a broken heart
Though at the moment it was real and pure.

So how can this be?
How did we end up here?
Do we really not get a happy ending?
Do we just walk away?

It was a slow dance in the dark
That would lead to a broken heart
Though at the moment it was real and pure.

Can we have just one more slow dance?
Can we please just go back
To the dark
To one more slow dance.

I don’t like to dream
Because I might dream of you
And when I wake
It’s like losing you all over again

The walls come closing in
And the sound becomes so small
Slow motion sets in
And I’m not there anymore

Took a pill to fall asleep
Like giving candy to a baby
Washed it down with my favorite *****
It burns so good

Sleep in till noon
And when I wake
Just lay there thinking of you
They say your mind will betray you

My town is a mile long
Feels like a prison most of the time
There’s a sign that sits at the edge of town
It reads please come back again

And we always do
What were told to do
It gets old real fast
When you outgrow your past

Slow motion shuts off
And it all comes rushing back
And I'm back in the same old routine
Still dreading falling asleep

They told me I have to grow up
as I’m throwing up the night before
all over the floor

Standing there watching the show
like I’m some sideshow freak
no idea the day of the week
or who I am anymore

Heard someone say rehab
so I tried  flying into the sun

Turns out it’s not a small world after all
No matter where you go
you’re past will follow
it’s a hard pill to swallow

They don’t teach you when you’re young the older you get
the easier it is to fake a smile
I stuck around for a while
just to show face  
                
Someone said they loved me
so I tried to run
but I flew too close to the sun

Turns out it’s not a small world after all
No matter where you go past will follow This life can be hard pill to swallow.

I am someone’s son
But know I am more
We are from somewhere and someone.
A life from another
A passing of a torch
A gift from above or something of the sort

You are someone’s daughter
You belong to her
Untill your grown and gone
And she’s left all alone

Some of us never knew our  fathers
Some  of us wish we did
But it doesn’t matter
Maybe it never did.

I am someone’s son
I am someone’s torch
I am am someone’s reason to carry forth
And we go on.

Your driving 90 on the highway,
Why are you always running away?
It always feels so bad.
But I’m used to getting let down.

I know I’m always complaining.
But I swear it’s always warranted,
It’s not all in my head.
These thoughts exist.

And make a sudden turn,
The wheels begin to burn.
And we flip, and we spin.
It’s a win,
Because stupid is what stupid does.

Holding hands, watching the sun set.
Listening to your favorite band,
On your iPhone.
We just watch as the world spins.

The ambulance came,
And they said you were dead.
You went to fast.
You sped through life,
Like a speeding car out of control.

Those summer girls
Those moves, those curves
Hot sun beating on their soft sensitive skin
Bikini lines forming, Soaking in
Those summer girl made of sin
Let me in

Those summer girls got a curse
They make you Act different
Have you speak different
They bury your heart in the sand
Like a curse on men

Those summer girls
Cast a spell
If I’m under one how can I tell?
Let me in
I want to know
These summer girls
They have all the control

I wish I could be like Superman.
Causing destruction everywhere I go, yet people cheer for me.

A symbol for peace, and all that's right, yet I occasionally take down a building.

I want people to chant my name, and call for me when they need me.
relish in my site, and think of me when I'm not around.

I want to be Superman for all of his short comings.
I want to wear the S

Prom queen without a crown
Stuck in a small town
Her dreams got away faster than she could run
Always wondering of what he’s become
She always falling a step behind
Harboring memories of bad times

Someone pulled the switch in her basement
Now her souls gone dark
She needs some light
she needs a fire, burning in her heart.
This ain’t make believe anymore
This is growing up.

Had Big dreams of a city
Saw yourself living there
But there ain’t no skyscrapers you can see from here
the bar gets crowded from time to time
But there ain’t much action there.

You tell yourself it gets better then this
As you knocked another back.
And as it hits your lips it takes you back
To that place and that kiss.
That touch that you miss.

Someone pulled the switch in her basement
Now her souls gone dark
She needs some light
she needs a fire, burning in her heart.
This ain’t make believe anymore
This is growing up.

Open the door,
Open your mind.
To the thought of,
Everything being a lie.

Take care of you first,
because it may be the last time.
Tell a joke,
That only you will laugh at.

Smoke a pack of cigarettes,
While drinking the best wine.
And laugh until you cry,
For anything at all.

Tell the truth,
No matter who it hurts.
Don’t be a liar,
Thats the worst kind of soul.

Don’t be an actor,
You’re not good at it at all.
You’re a bad liar,
That’s for sure.

Run a red light,
Steal a car.
Start a fire,
In a mall.

Make a mistake,
And make another one.
Drink until you pass out,
Stay sober for a year.

You can do whatever you want,
You’re the boss of yourself.
You can fall in love,
Or break a heart.

You don’t have to decide right now,
But this big old world doesn’t stop turning.
And you’ll have to make your mind up
One day.

Cause and effect,
You live and regret.
You can’t stand to be where you are anymore.
Holding on for dear life,
Almost made it out alive.
But you lost it at the last second,
You gave it up at the bottom.
Its all that you have,
Can’t give anymore.
Your almost dead,
You’re sure.
But you I’ve to see another day,
Yu can’t help but feel you got away.
With your life in one hand,
And in the other a new chance.

Well you swallowed your class in that last whiskey glass
As the lights began to rise.
And they’re calling last call
As your calling out
For someone to play your favorite song.
Oh long nights I remember
Most I want to forget
But I wouldn’t change it for the world.
Born in 89
About time I’ve found the time
To witness so much beauty
In the face of another.
Have another glass.
Calm your nerves at last
And try to remember
Where you’ve been and who’ve you loved.
Cause time passes.
Just ask our parents, parents.
Just try to remember the good times.

There’s a calm I appreciate
The kinds that comes with peace
The kind you don’t get
Not unless your in that place
That void
The great moment of clarity
Where you find yourself alone
Laying back, relaxing
maybe listening to music
And your staring straight ahead
All your worries in the world
They go blank
Nonexistent
And you’re sitting there
Staring out into space
And you smile
Because you know
Your alright
You exist
You live to fight another day
And you kinda just melt
Into a pool of clarity
Peace of mind
True calm

In another puff of a cigarett
a thought of dead friend
You are the keeper
Of all youve ever known
In small towns circle square
Scream your thoughts that you don't care
About being heard here tonight
You fight for reasons you can get by

There's no more room for the last scream
Just one last word for you to hear
A last choice of words
That don't make it to the final script

You've kept this secret close for so long
This is t how it should end
There's another more words left in this song
That you keep singing to yourself

Oh dear god I hope your ready for a comback?

Take one last look at the past now.
You can keep trying for a different path
You are the last of the chosen
Who's words keep running around my head..

You put all your trust in the internet
They said it was the future.
The machine will show bud the way
To a better tomorrow.
But tomorrow came and they took all the books away.
People started protesting
Marching in the streets.
The voice over the loud speaker
Said trust in the machine.
As the tear gas filled the sky.
We put all our trust in the machine
And it took over the world.
They see you when your sleeping
They know when you’re awake.
You gave them all the power
It was a fatal mistake.
You watch from the hilltop
The missiles lit the sky
The machine took over the world
That’s burning in front of your eyes

oh ****, oh ****, oh ****
This wasn’t part of the plan
To fall in love with a narcissist
And be the one who only thinks of themselves

I’m in shock
Shake me off
I need to get back to myself
This really isn’t me
Im a shell of my former self

Oh ****, oh ****, oh ****
Someone wake me
Am I still dreaming?
It’s a joke
But at least the punchline is funny

I showed you mine
And you took it and ran
Past the finish line with my heart in your hand
You showed me yours
that day

Oh ****, oh ****, oh ****
The man on the corner was screaming
“What happened to my country”
As you were saying something cynical
“It’s always been this way.”

The dreams all came here to die
We all make it up as we go along
Waiting for that burning sun to go out
We’ll all have such a good time

We follow the ambulance sirens
Just to see something real
Just adding fuel to the fire
And you asked
How does it make you feel?

Oh ****, oh ****, oh ****
This wasn’t part of the plan

In what was probably fate, the rain came.
Crashing down on roof tops and side walks.
But today of all days?
it figures with my luck.
Never sun shine and no traffic.
Just rain and red lights.

I hate the rain.
I wish it would go away.
Maybe I should do a rain dance and make it disappear.
Mr. Rain man they would call me.

Calling it on account of rain.
I’m not available.
The rain came and ruined it all.

The universe is big
Just like this room
Your on the other end of the bar
Feels like miles apart

This dim light is comforting
The loud noise is deafening
But when I see you
It all goes mute

There is nowhere on earth
That I would rather be then right now
I could not imagine any other way
With any other soul but you
The only thing that’s real is you

This cigarette taste great
Your lips taste better
No amount of alcohol could make you look any better than you do right now

A street light
A crowded street
Your eyes focused on me
The city never sleeps

There is nowhere on earth
That I would rather be then right now
I could not imagine any other way
With any other soul but you
The only thing that’s real is you

I don’t pray
but I would pray for you
Make this last forever
I only want you

I caught fire
You sparked the flame
My heart was the rag
And you were the gasoline

There is nowhere on earth
That I would rather be then right now
I could not imagine any other way
With any other soul but you
The only thing that’s real is you

These cold dark nights
Always end up teaching us things
Like how to fall in love
And what it all could mean

They don’t tell you to watch out for it
And how it sneaks up on you
Sometimes it comes to you as a girl
On the other side of the room

There is nowhere on earth
That I would rather be then right now
I could not imagine any other way
With any other soul but you
The only thing that’s real is you

You are always on my mind
And I am always in a daze
Thinking of yesterday and tomorrow
I am searching for
A sign to show me
And all I’m askin for
Is a sign to show me
Show me the way

And all I know is what I’ve seen
And only I know what I believe
So I am searching for a sign
To show me the way
And all I’m asking for
Is a sign to show me the way

I was drinking wine out of a solo cup,
When the shots rang out.
I saw the blood from the start,
It really looked like it hurt.
They tried to **** the president.
America are you sure?
The secret service was fast,
They covered him like a breaking story.
The reporters said it was gory,
But he was ok.
It only grazed his ear,
He pumped his hands in the air.
And I don’t care,
Who you are.
In that moment you said,
what the **** am I watching.
It’s all a blur,
They went to a commercial break.
It all looked so fake,
Like the moon landing.
They said he lived,
He’s in a hospital bed.
Talking the same nonsense,
He could have been dead.
But it doesn’t make a difference,
They don’t care.
It’s all a dream,
And we all have one.
It’s what it means to you,
Do you care enough?

Lighting struck the field
And fire started to spread
And everyone ran for the hills

But not you
Not now
You stood like a Queen without a crown

As the winds fanned the flames
The smoke chocked the air
A smile overtook your face

What joy
It brought to you
To watch the world burn

The moon light shined down
And the stars seemed closer then ever
And you stood like a goddess consumed in pleasure

The people doused the flames with water
But in the end it was In vane
The crops had been destroyed

Was this God?
Was this fate?
To you it did not matter.

This is the part where you find yourself
This is life on earth
This is not the end

When the sun finally appeared
There were only ashes
There were only tears

But not you
No fear
You haven’t seen the sky so blue in years

This is the part where you find yourself
This is life on earth
There is nothing else

This is the part where you find yourself
This is life on earth
This is not the end

I’m so far gone but I’m not getting bigger.
The problem grows, persist and gets bigger.
I’m not alone but the room it gets smaller.
I’m waiting for space.
But I’m getting impatient.
The world spins and I’m getting sicker.

No time to morn
The past it gets meaner.
You’ve stood your ground.
Your friends have delivered.

Now bow your head.
The world it gets bigger.
No time to cry.
Your sad and your bitter.

You count the days.
They grow and get longer.
You’ve run out of space
This life it gets bigger.

A thousand miles,
A million years.
A half done speech,
It’s your to share.

This life is dull.
It’s yours to repair.
No time to stay
This life it gets bigger.

I heard get ****** up then die in a song once and I felt that
It resonated in my soul
Found a home in the streets
Thought that’s where I’d grow old
And truth be told I miss those days
But as life goes you must keep pace
And traced out bodies from chalk
On the sidewalk wash away in the rain
But not this now
But not this anymore
Not this pain
It doesn’t wash away
You can’t just bleach it out
This pain will leave a stain

Called me told me you were pregnant
I was on shrooms
I was dancing on stage in my mind
The light in my eyes
I was blind

You Said “I’m gunna have your baby,
But I don’t really know if that’s what I want”
I said
“You do what you think is best”

And you said
“I don’t think your where you wanna be
And me,
I can’t take care of myself”

This place is a mess
And at best
We’re  not where we need to be
And you see it in me
I know

Don’t wait for me
I’m far behind
I’m never gunna catch up

We ain’t ever gunna match up

Don’t wait for me
I’m long forgotten
I’m not gunna catch up
I’m not gunna be there when it ends

The moons glow,
My spot light.
Step on my tippy toes,
Around your egg shells.
What a mess,
What a horror story.

Just move slow,
Don’t let them see you strain.
Learn to love the pain,
Your motivation.
Open your mouth,
But nothing comes out.

Tired slow breathing,
Sounds of regret.
You slip into the darkness,
They can’t pull you back.
You’re on your own.

This silence feels like home.
But your so far away,
You reach but you can’t touch.
Your all alone,
Just like when you were born.

You scream out,
But no one hears you.
This silence feels like home.
So you stay still,
Your heart beat is the only sound.

The cold air presses against my face,
And I feel so alive.
The atmosphere feels so aligned.
I'm surrounded by the ones I love.
This is the the perfect Time.

We only have time to waste.
We only have time to make,
Our greatest dreams come true!

We waste so much time waiting for things to happen for us.
We only have time to make things happen for us.

Time moves so fast.
It's here and then it's gone.
Time is what keeps us grounded.
Keep that in mind.

The time is now.
The time is always.
Like be those who love you.
And never forget.

To all the girls whoever loved me
Just know that you were right
I couldn’t change
Because I didn’t want to
You only get to live one life

It was always real
As ugly as it got
For some it was easy
For others it was not

Tried to make it better
A bandaid doesn’t fix a broken heart
Can’t make it better
I’m not certified in love

The curtains closing slowly
The applauds start to dim
The show for some ended slowly
For some the second act was grim

To all the girls whoever loved me
Just know that you were right
I couldn’t change
Because I didn’t want to
You only get to live one life

I was always empty
I had nothing ever to give
You were sold a bad investment
It was never going to follow through

Your questions may be never answered
If there were any from the start
I know that mine are never ending
But life is like that in the end

To all the girls whoever loved me
I wonder where you are
I wonder if your happy
I hope your where your meant to be

You didn’t know what you were in for
When you made your move
And when it all came unraveled
You felt like you’d been lied to

Slow down my dear, I hear your fears.
Though valid, I don't care.
Your here, And so am I.
Today you might just find.
You got the rest of your life.

To be clear I'm starting to figure out.
These fears of doubt are something to think about.
I'm here. I hear you loud and clear.
But my hearts not in it and just don't care.

I'm not who I was.
We've seem to have lost our touch.
Go your way and have no fear.
One day I promise it will be clear.

Your here. I'm here.
Your fears are not my fears.
We're not the same.
And I don't blame you if you blame me.

My cigarettes almost done.
And when's it gone I'll be threw with you.
Every memory of us I'll drown in alcohol or something worse.
I'm staring up at the moon
Wondering if that's what your doing.
I'm so at peace with where we lay.
But I'm still wondering who's laying next to you.
Burn the pictures and leave no evidence.
It's best for everyone involved.
Just keep your thoughts to yourself.
Trust me your better off.
Tonight just let go of your demons.
Thus don't control who you are.
Tonight just be happy for once
You owe yourself that.

You swim and you sink.
How long can you hold your breath?
This current will take you,
Take all of you if you let it.
Sway and be calm.
Let the water take you away.
The undertow will take care of you.

I once sought the attention of an undeserving girl.

I once promised her the world.

Flowered her with gifts and words of love and affection.

Held hands and walked along the roads lest traveled.

Spent the night gazing at the stars sharing ghost stories from the past.

But like all good things our love did not last.

She grew tired of the moment and said love was not enough.

Next time I’ll have to be more careful.

I’m  standing on a snowy mountain top
in Alaska
When my brother says he misses me
Says it’s been to long since I’ve come from the lower 48

And I’m sad to admit that’s it’s true
But through the rain I spit out
I say I’ll do better
But I never do

“It’s a shame I can’t stay longer”
I say to him
But I know that I don’t have the heart to wander away from my comfort zone

I’m headed up north to Alaska
To find some peace of mind
But I’m left feeling empty
Like I'm leaving what I set out to find

Heading north to Alaska
I’m going north to Alaska
Ive come and gone
But my heart is In Alaska

Saw the northern lights dance in the sky
Brought tears to my eyes
Kayaked through the pacific
Sea otters swam by my side

Saw mountain carry the sky
So tall I felt so small inside
It’s the last frontier
Its the last of the Best of the world

I’m headed up north
I’m going north to Alaska
Ive come and gone
But my heart is In Alaska