my world
always crumbling as i walk past
the tears and the pain always come back
dreams and hopes all put on hold
people who said it'll last forever...only lies that are told
so many times i've been left alone and in the dark crying on my own
when will it get easier it always feel like im left alone
how could someone so close turn their back on you with betrayal
strike you with the hand the once stoke your cheek
kiss you with their lips that now leave you dismantaled
maybe i asked for it
all my wrong doings circling back around
when will the cycle end, when will this lost feeling be found.

..and this i know without a doubt that i shall love you till the day i die and even when i watch over you.
Oblivion: my biggest fear, even though i know without a doubt i'll always have you near and dear close to my heart.
If fate one day shall take you away from me
or you choose to leave my soul would die it'd no longer be the same. I know i never shall give you purpose to leave or brake you ever again.
Jonathan my love, tongue nor action could ever explain my love and benevolence for you.
The type that never fades or waivers.
A strong hold is what you have on my heart. A kind that wasn't forced or taken by lust, or sin or wrong doing but with the utmost of perfection.
You my love; an angel a truth to rejoice in with each day i awake and to have you as mine an answered prayer. Thank you my dear.
No longer alone, i have purpose, to keep on fighting my demons so you have to deal with none.
The love of my life, my world my rock my soul mate. I love you with all my heart with all my might and all my being.

I had a dream that one day I’d walk down the isle to you. A tear would stream down my face as I made my way to you. I would watch your eyes gleam and see your stunning smile. But I ruined it all. Our future our children of which we won’t have not  a home together not even another laugh. I won’t get to see you wrap your arms around them while your holding my hand; I’d take it all in. So thankful I’d be waking up to you and hearing you breathe making love and sharing our lives but I ruined it all if only I wasn’t me. If only I could disappear.

I loved you more than life itself but I betrayed you. I told you forever and that you were the only one but I betrayed you. You were my dream come true but it ended with a nightmare. I betrayed you. All this love and regret will be the end of me because I betrayed you.
You said you’d love me forever but I betrayed you how many times Can I say I’m sorry and that it meant nothing to me but you won’t believe me because I betrayed you.
I’m gone I’m no longer a part of this world because I betrayed you. And I left a path of hurt for more than one. I betrayed you.

This was it this is what had been waited on for so long.
Glistening eyes and an open heart
that of which echoes thunder
It had been said it wouldn't come for many years but hope has proven other wise.
Dangerous it is being so close to something so rare and valuable but yet so priceless .
Not a soul nor a being can render the utmost of riches to claim what is her eternity and the serendipity which lead to him.
For he is hardly seen.
She professes she can feel the heat from miles and miles afar, feels the sparks on her tongue.
The meteoroids small bijou's skimming the pure scented skin of herself
she appears to cease to exist when being compared to his grandeur.
It is as if he is her and her him.
One.


They are still circling the universe in nirvana.
Her savior her life: Comet Jonathan her eternity, serenity.

there's a metaphor about
    finding something you weren't looking for
  an unexpected treasure,
       & you were that treasure
I wasn't looking for;
   like a pearl on the beach
or a star in the sky
       I got to graze you with my fingertips;
our lips have never met
    but you consume my every thought
unfold every layer of my heart,
        disarm me
you laid your heart on mine;
     so much love I want to give
even if there's a wait,
      it's worth the wait;
reflected in our eyes when they meet,
          burning candlelight,
    sunset through the window,
how I want you
    need you
  love you
on whatever is handy
     I will write...