AllAtOnce

AllAtOnce Dec 2014

monsters

i curl up in blankets and clutch my pounding head
i don't dare tip a toe on the ground
and tempt the demons under the bed
with their claws that ****** and eyes that don't see
they wait for me to slip out of the covers
they wait, oh they wait for me
there's monsters out there
there's monsters in the dark
disguised like humans cloaked in pride still waiting to break your heart
so as the floor melts away
and the world turns to ashes
i'll hide in my bed in the same disarray
because the world inside my head is just as scary

#hide #dark #monsters

AllAtOnce Dec 2014

When a tree falls...

I gave my heart to you and ever since
It's been a caution-taped, mangled mess
I trust when I shouldn't and don't love when I should
Your name carved on my heart as if carved into wood
Because it will never go away no matter what I do
When you loved someone you'll always carry a piece of them with you
So when the tree falls and is burned away
Nothing changes and we're begging each other to stay
A new tree grows from the ashes like a Phoenix
But even I know what will happen next
Just when it starts to finally take root
It falls away, just like you
So we're grasping at straws as we fall to the ground
When a tree falls, does it make a sound?

#love #mess #trees #falls

AllAtOnce Dec 2014

reality

you can't change your words once they've been sung
like you can't ***** out the stars or bury the sun
what you said you can never take back
and when you said 'go away' i was almost okay with that
because the sky's not red; it's still blue
and no twisted words are better than the truth
the grass is still green and the sun still shines
i'm still broken and there's still sorrow in your eyes
nothing has changed and i don't think i mind
reality is a comforting blanket in the middle of the night
i still eat leftovers for breakfast and ride the bus to school
the only difference is now i don't need you

AllAtOnce Dec 2014

The Moon, The Sky, The Stars, and Their Lies

The light in her soul and the sparks in his eyes
Like the stars and the moon that come out at night
The sky in its never ending glory tries to keep them apart
But there's so many places to hide in the dark

The constellations carry their whispers across the skies
And the clouds report back to their master but all they tell are lies
Because one could never see a more perfect heart
Than that of the moon and its stars

Every once and a while the moon has to come out during the day
And the stars have to explode because a sacrifice needs to be made
They can't escape the sky but they can keep their space
And nothing can be heard if there's nothing to say

#moon #stars #sky

AllAtOnce Dec 2014

Playing pretend

In so sick of feeling so broken
And I'm straining to stand on my own
But everytime I'm about to break down
I'm foolish and pick up the **** phone
And I know you'll just yell at me
For all the things I did wrong
Because I lied, lead you on, and broke everything we had
And I'll pretend you're right and play along
I don't need you as a support beam
I don't need you to put me back in line
And most of all I don't need your attention
It'll come true if I say it enough times
Maybe I'm just lonely
And everyone else is busy
It's not like I have feelings for you
But I just miss your company
I'm tired of pretending everything's okay
I know the answers to this test
Everyone listens to me at home
And of course I'm getting enough rest
Fake it until you make it
I suppose we're all just faking our way through
Hoping that everything we pretend to feel or not feel
Will eventually come true

#lonely #pretend #playing

AllAtOnce Dec 2014

Dissection

I'm going insane and I don't know where to go or who to be
I know I want what I want but I can't dissect your freaken poetry
So I stare at it for hours and try to find meaning between the rhyming words
But I'm left wondering if anything means nothing at all

AllAtOnce Dec 2014

Diamonds and Binding

All dressed up in diamonds and made up eyes
With scarlet lips under darkening skies
I go to meet my other half for the first time in my life
So I open the latch and walk right inside
He sits on the desk, stiff and honor bound
Or what's left of him anyway, because no one is around
And as I brush my fingertips over the ancient cover
Cracks start to form and I weep for this lover
The heart shaped book was touched by decay
But my curiousity was enough to make me stay
I'd give anything to see those pages covered in my ink and writing
With my words printed in his heart and my kisses the binding
But if a single touch makes everything fall apart
Nothing is worth breaking this hallowed heart
So I turn around and walk away
All dressed up futilely for a morbid parade
A little part of me still hoped he'd appear and reach out a hand
But nothing is worth everything falling apart all over again

Idrk what this is