“I am lied to,
I am deceived,
I am hurt ,
I am broken,
I am split,
I am dust”,
All things our heart has whispered,
Into our souls.
Which are whispering to our minds,
“I am lied to,
I am deceived,
I am hurt,
I am broken,
I am split,
I am dust”.
And the mind replies,
“I am lied to,
I am deceived,
I am hurt,
I am broken,
I am split,
I am dust”.
Our souls,
Our hearts,
Our minds.
They are all tired.
Tired of the lieing,
Deceiving,
Hurting,
Breaking
Splitting,
And cremating.
Our hearts, minds, and souls
Are sick of this abuse,
“We want a break” they scream,
“We are done with the abuse.”
Then the heart shuts down,
Then the mind.
And finally,
The soul convinces the body,
“Your in pain, those pills can make it better”
The body takes a pill,
“No” the soul says,
“All of them” it whispers.
The body takes them all,
It Falls asleep.
“It didn’t work” the soul screams,
“Pick up the blade, it will give you sweet release from this pain,”
The soul coaxes “it wont hurt.”
The blade cuts,
The blood drips,
The body is dying.
“Finally” the soul celebrates,
“No more suffering,
No more pain,
No more deceiving,
Its over”
The soul shuts down.

There i was Drifted away
You standing in front of me
The words I love you, your lips said

I never been happier in my life than i was there, with you in my arms
I woke up and i didin't even cry.

I was just emty ,
I lost my soul
And for the first time I
Looked at that rope and didin't feel any resistance.
I just feel so Lonely.

Seven EIGHT poor six
Run away dear five

Well if I saw her now my eyes would
turn inwards, my torso away from
her place, my head tilted in
disregard.

Still, her face, in all its
horrific glory, is unmoving
in my mind. And when she passes
the memories of it return
fliterringly

The knife of regret tries to cut it,
the wind of thoughts obscure it,
and the force of envy destroy it.

But she remains through it all.

How I long for the order of solitude.
Away from the malicious passion
and the maddening peace. The longing
ceases

until she no longer cares- but I do.
And in the nights when I battle for
the never coming release, I think
of the days when we were one.

I don't see her now- did I ever?
and now i suppose i wasn't so clever