If you know me at all, you know I am a lot to handle, even for myself.
I feel very deeply and I do not know if that’s a flaw or a favor given by subconscious
That sometimes anxiety swallows me whole and I can not find the words to speak
But I can write very clearly

And if he knew me at all
The hole he punched in the wall would’ve been a kiss on the forehead instead
A soft “I understand, just take your time”
That tells me that things just weren’t right

Last night I saw you
A face so familiar
I swear, my dear, it felt like a dream

But something has changed
You’re not quite the same
I hope that you can find yourself someday

You’re eyes looked like spring now all I see is ice and rain
An empty glance and something I no longer understand

I could just walk away but would you like me to stay and tell you everything that I would rather not say

I’m a stranger to me and I’d rather not be
I’ll find my way to me eventually.

He took me to dinner on a Tuesday night. A rather “hole in the wall” kind of place most people would pass over without a second glance.

I look at him from across the table with a smile, wondering what I did that lead up to us being here together. We speak of life and love over 3 courses and a bottle of wine.

Leaving the restaurant, I realized that the stars look to the moon with as much awe and wonder as your eyes to mine. As you open the passenger side door and help me in, I realize that I can take care of myself but you make me want to love myself as well.

We talk of lust and death on the way home over gas station coffee and cigarettes. As I marvel at the smoke you exhale dancing in the glow of the headlights, I realized that no matter how much you love someone, they can still find a way to slip through your fingers.

I remember you skipping rocks with me on the beach
How they flew through the summer sky and sunk way down deep
And I knew from the way you were laughing at me
that this won’t turn out the way we’d wished it to be
In the end

I remember long days we had alone on the couch
with teeth stained in red wine, our worries flew out
the front door down the hallway where you first said you love me
Past first kiss and last dance and holiday plans that fell flat

And I saw your new girlfriend at the bar, she looks pretty
And sometimes I wonder how she looks in the morning
dreary eyes beg for coffee, does she remind you of me?
I guess I just get over all of it eventually

And pretend
we made it
in the end

These are the moments you remember in the end
And you are the song that I hear inside my head
And through all the fire, we took time to put it out
And once in the ashes, not a thing to cry about

With you came the sun
ever shining, always glowing, shed a light on all we’ve found
And if I stumble, I look to you and you pull my feet up off the ground

And I’ll keep on running though I know I won’t get too far
Cause you have me dancing on the sidewalk in the thunder
after everything went dark
I know we don’t have the answers but that don’t matter
we’ll still sit in wonder here together,
how the best is yet to come

Walked by the tree we carved our names in
Scratched out beside it said K+N
And I wondered then out loud
hey maybe I could burn it down
to the ground

Or keep on walking, pass it by
as a simple picture in the mind
that got too hazy, blurry baby
Two lost souls too intertwined

And I’m fine
I’ll be alright
I’ll pack my bags and catch a flight
Too far away for us to say
Hey what are you doing Saturday night?