Sometimes I wonder
If I'm cut out to be happy.
And sometimes I wonder
If I even want to be.
I realize how crazy that sounds
But my pain
Is my creativity.
And I'm not sure
I'm ready to give that up.

I don't know
what it feels like
to be crippled by fear.
To always look for flaws
within me
and my choices.

All I know is
when I look into your green eyes
I don't see peace
I see a storm ripping leaves off branches
Making you hold on
to what gave you life in the past.

And that's when I understand.
Because nothing is scarier
than letting go and trusting
that the wind will carry you
until you're home
with me.

My whole life I've been taught to be good.
My whole life I've been told to be nice.
My whole life I've been made silent.

"Don't make people uncomfortable" they said.
"That's a girl's only job."

But I'm on the cold hardwood floor,
tears streaming down my face.
No way to contain these feelings anymore.
This time I won't go with grace.

I was unhappy
and I know you felt it.
Because one day
with no warning,
you said goodbye.

Without looking back,
you just left me
on the side of the road.
With a shattered heart
and broken dreams.

Your last words to me
still ring in my ears,
before I go to sleep at night
and the moment I wake up.

"I can't stay.
Because if I do,
you'll walk away.
If there's one thing
I've learned in life,
it's to leave
before you get left."

I act all tough
But underneath the surface
I am fragile.

Because I hide my pain
You break me over and over again.

I constantly seek your approval
But no matter how hard I try
I never get it.

Because I don’t understand
I see myself as the problem.

I look for answers in my flaws
When in reality
The problem is you.

Have you ever considered
how crazy it is
that you can go
from being strangers
to friends
to lovers?

From knowing nothing about a person
to knowing all their little quirks.

And then suddenly
without any warning
you go back
to being strangers.

All the connections erased.
Like your two souls weren't one at some point.

It's funny, isn't it?
How your whole life can change
within a matter of seconds.

It's funny, isn't it?
How you can be living your life
and through a string of choices,
you end up in a place
you never thought you'd be.

It's funny, isn't it?
How one day, your heart
can be light as a feather
and the next, it's like the entire world
is weighing you down.