The inevitable is that the thing we call a heartbeat will no longer exist and it will not come back

I have learned that if there is ever a time when someone makes you forget that, that that is what great writers and the "genius" beings try to tell others about.
the reason we read or listen or look at what they created is that some people have come to the realization that they comprehend something so amazing that once you feel it that heartbeat will feel like it ceased to exist

Find that so dying won't hurt so much.

sorry cut it that night and every time I think of someone else you slip into my mind
this is a nightmare I can't escape while I'm awake
I told you this would end and I told you I was more trouble than you would come to realize I'm worth
Do you want to know why?
To ease the blow when it all inevitably fell apart, leave the door creaked open so when you left it was soundless & painless
Oh god, but the pain is relentless
I fell in love
You taught me to trust is to be deceived, but to hold a knife behind your back was to be careful
So tell me...
do words matter if there isn't anyone to hear them?

don't act like you didn't do anything, you know what you did
You stopped talking to me
I'm not your *****, it may had taken me a while, but I realized it
I stopped grasping on
Don't you miss the long texts I sent you while you only replied with a yeah or ignoring me in the halls unless no one else was interested in you
Now tell me boy, what were your intentions, destroy me & make me a horrible child?
leave me speechless?
I have money that it was so you would have a girl, little and trusting, who would always say "he's a good boy & a good friend. He will be there. Trust him, I would put my life in his hands. Be his girlfriend, be his fiancé, be his wife."
You don't even know when it is all coming apart
I'm out of breathe from the memories and broken promises

it didn't seem alright
I mean I don't really know why I even did it
Jealousy or greed, stupidity
I'm not going to be able to change what happened and will pay for my sins
sins, can you call them that when you don't have a religious affiliation
This isn't okay by any manner and you deserve to be as harsh as you want
the faster your run the harder you hit the ground
so I'm sorry
if the silence comes
it was because of everything

when someone tells you be to be small and you've spent your whole life trying to be looked up to contrary to your size things get messy
It was a small remark which they treat as any other sentence in the English language and they probably don't know what it means for someone to say that.
They laugh and I laugh because that makes me "normal"
I am not normal by any means so maybe I should stop trying

I can see the glint of your new car
the banging of speakers from afar
But why are you throwing a fist to this new guy? You're so good at making people cry

Gold grillz, so chic, full of style!
Don't trip me with your Gucci shoes
This isn't a game where I have to lose

Turnnnn up! ***** and *****
What a cool party! Popping pills
Rainbows and unicorns in the sky
My my, looks fun but sorry
you're out of your mind

Ohhh, new acrylic nails?
So how many minions
tagging on that tail?
Okay, that's it.
I'm taking my ship for a sail
Because this land's no longer a fairytale

Yo mama so... what?
I'm so not good in rhymin'
not even rappin'
**** man, nobody even see me rollin'
But I'm watchin' and ohhh,
I already see it comin'

Drama queens and jocks
taking the shiny floor
I can't stand this scene anymore
Looks like an asylum, finding a cure

But hey! Let's go grab some
drinks and a popcorn
To remind you, we're not going
to watch some piece of ****
Just sit back and relax ma homie
This ain't a sad movie
but all we need to do is mourn

The way his leather boots
stomp the ground
Swaying his black jacket,
Jumping while singing
in a bolt of lightning
making heads spinning around

Most girls love...
How his sweat sparkles in the light
His face, so flawless and bright
the way he winks makes all of them scream
wanting him more in their dreams

When he plucks his strings,
The world rocks
that's what he always bring

It's a high ceiling where
she loves doing her thing
Breathing deeply,
stroking the bow on the strings forming a beautiful reverberation while closing her eyes
The untied hair goes with the beat
This stadium's starting to heat

He stood in the hallway with a smile
Leaning on the white wall
waiting for her to pass by
This is too real, looking dumbfounded talking to a tight-jean-kind of guy

The one from school
which you'll find cool
standing in this hall
making every gals drool

Looking at each other's eyes,
melody and harmony
starting to collide,
not leaving each other's side
Creating a perfect balance of tune for the rest of their lives

-A

10/03/14