I still remember the last time I saw you
and I remember the day I realized
it was really over

but life goes on, as things do
however, I still find myself
thinking about you

I’ve seen other people,
I’m sure you have too
but still, I really, truly do
myss you

I just want to escape
I want life to be better
I want to be loved
I’ve never been loved...

I’m dying
My light is flickering out
Faith wavering
I’m unsteady

And YOU all...
So caught up in yourselves
You’re blind to my suffering
I’M IN TREMENDOUS PAIN
You’ve all forgotten
But it never ended for me

My heart is weary
My head burdened
The only way to tell you
Is to make my body reflect
All the scars in my mind

You’ll see me fall
Notice just too late
To save that poor girl’s soul

i just don't think there is any metaphor,
i don't think i can censor or hide this

i don't want to die,
i just wish i never existed in the first place.