now I don't mind taking criticism but those who disrespect me should expect to be seeing light like a prism you shouldn'tve said anything you little troll you never commented on anything I wrote inboxing me trying to scold me for reposting something I found funny you'll learn not to **** with me the blast master you little ******* can't type more than ten Words while I can drop bombs and bars for hours I'll scour the internet and *******'re no original self up on here or on wax if you wanna take it that far man **** it I'm done you're a waste of dissing bars

Great, I think she wants back in my life
She walked out when we possibly had a future maybe with two kids a happy husband and wife
I'm still bearing wounds from our last encounter
It's ludicrous what I had to go through with this *****
Oh wait I shouldn't say that even though she ripped my heart into halves and almost flatlined me
So even though I swore I wouldn't do any more rhymes about her I'm going out of my solace to lay my feelings to rest like a hydraulic mattress
I'm glad this has happened in a cosmic sort of way because no matter how hard it became alive I stayed to prove not to just to her but myself that you can survive heartbreak of that density those few weeks felt like a nomadic crackhead wandering the centuries yet it interests me that she expects me to say something to her first which is why I'm putting all of my problems and angst into this verse
I'm open to being friends again I'm all for that because what happened shouldn'tve happened at all but don't you dare play with my heart again because of you do I'll burn you like a succubusses ***** after an STD

I’m starting to think about you and I and with clarity
Not with anger, or annoyance, just as two people.
Two people, who once knew each other, but were not meant for each other
Friends, is really the best option. It always was.
It wouldn’tve mattered when it ended, it would have anyways
How blind i was to what was happening and I’m sorry
For everything, but in the end, our end, this is how it was written.

see that you're on right now
pondering what would happen if we talked right now
we're both more than able but its clear
that you don't want me around
but i know you're up in bed
thoughts messing with your head
or maybe that's just me
i remember when you said
that i was perfect for you
what happened to us two
i probably shouldn'tve pushed you away
but i didn't know what else to do
when the feelings started to change
stopped smiling when you said my name
just hurting one another
didn't wanna be the cause of your pain
so i released you to the skies
just to dream of you every night
it's been long enough now
but you still cross my mind
and in another world we'd be okay
but that time is not today
even after all the **** you did
i hope you feel loved and happy and safe

you first talked to me a year ago today.
and i couldn'tve been happier.
what happened to us?

d.l.b.

I'm confused stuck at a crossroads with no idea what to do
I swore to myself I need no help that I wouldn't go crawling back to you
Now I don't know what to do, because it hurts to have to miss you
But I don't wanna get stomped on for wanting something beyond what we had to begin with, it's annoying because I shouldn'tve gotten attached to begin with
But I did get attached
Now I'm confused if you feel the same
It hurts to miss you, I may feel empty but it's for the best
Between the crossroads I've found my way, the road leading right away from you

I don't regret meeting you
I regret falling for you
If I knew it'd end like this
I wouldn'tve put my heart out like that
There is not a lot I regret in my life
But this one
I wish I could go back and change it
Why is it hard to let you go
There is s nothing there to hold on to
So what am I hanging on to?

drunk on a doorstep
how'd i end up here
maybe i shouldn'tve acknowledged
my deepest fears
maybe i shouldn't have said anything
before i was sure how i felt
but i was freaking out
and i needed somebody to tell
and i needed to let it out
and get it off my chest
one thing led to another
you already know the rest
i don't even know i'm saying sorry for
you're the one who made me a joke
you get laughed at once
and suddenly i'm the one being cold
i understand why you don't like it
but frankly i didn't either
i'd say let's call it even
but i can tell by your demeanor
you dont want to hear a word from me
so i'm stuck here confused
if you don't want me to apologize
what else am i supposed to do
because we can't avoid each other forever
we share too much to succeed at that
at the very least i wanna address the issue
even if i can't take it back
so we're not walking around the problem
letting it become bigger than us
to the point it's so ******* awkward
being in your vicinity *****
maybe im being hopeful
but i am dying to work this out
**** can we just be cool
cause you're always gonna be around

just like that
it's over
will likely never
get any closure
you keep
avoiding my calls
mystery remains
unsolved

confused
as to what to do
shouldn'tve
depended on you
but i did
and now i am ******
somehow
i'm never enough

to hold you eyes
or know your plans
close my eyes
remember your hands
nothing will make me
understand
youre never gonna care
to know who i am

i miss you
like an old friend
troubled trying to
comprehend
how it was never
how i felt it was
only explanation you give
is just because

you let me
hang myself with dreams
you were fine with how
it all seemed
when you benefitted
from knowing me
now it's a lie
no mystery

one day when you regret your choice and look back at how things were
the day that i'm actually moved on and shining without a care in the world
don't reach out and say you miss me and you shouldn'tve chosen that girl
over our friendship because i knew that from the second you turned
i knew the second you tasted her lips you were gonna burn
you did everything and anything to give the world to her
up to even lying to me and leaving me crying on a curb
i was broken without you and i was lonely and hurt
you were the one person i thought truly deserved
the trust i put in them though i've obviously learned
history means nothing when it comes to making it work
whoever gets you off will always have the last word
so no i would not like to pick things up or reminisce on how they were
it was good while it lasted but you left on bad terms
i have no need to reconnect or wait to reobserve
the same toxic behavior that led this to occur

everything i couldn't be
things i shouldn'tve done
disappointment swells in your eyes
as you hiss at what i've become
sorry for who i ended up being
for not being enough to make you love me
the guilt has eaten through my anger
away is where i'll keep running

you were burning time
thought i was investing mine
oh couldn'tve been more wrong
now could have i

not saying you weren't genuine
but we didn't share the same sentiment
you just wanted company
unintentionally made **** intimate

fast forward a couple weeks
hearing nothing from me
you're not too stressed
probably for the best
know that it's been tense
thought we were more than friends
that was my mistake
you don't even seem see the pain
all you know is i'm gone
probably wondering what you did wrong
i wanna say it was all in my head
our messages suggest otherwise instead
maybe you're not confused
maybe you're full aware of what you do
maybe i'm reading into this too much
maybe i shouldn'tve gotten my hopes up

been a few months now
thought you would've came around
maybe i was too quick to shut **** down
fighting the urge to reach out

so i do
hi how are you
it's strange
regret the choice i made
you wanna **** me in
to your world again
aborting this mission
you double down on my decision
i say goodbye
you ask me why
tell me i've been acting weird
demand an answer now that i'm here

and i realize i don't trust you with my feelings

you made me feel safe
then took that away

when i look at you i see a mask
i love myself enough to never go back

more than every bad decision
and the people you shouldn'tve been with
don't become their definition
or carry those words under your skin

have value beyond the things you can do
stop saying your truth is just an excuse
those problems are real to you
take a moment to tend to your wounds

no one deserves to feel so splintered
loving yourself doesn't make you self-centered
they'll still be hurtful when your thinner
halting the narrative doesn't make you bitter

be bigger than the ones who made you feel small
set your boundaries and repair your walls
you can't always do it all
but that doesn't make everything your fault